Sunday, March 27, 2005
pics..
grad pics..don't get them, though..or tag me if you will get something..please..ayt..
i posted some pics here..di lang lahat..wala lang.. hi jals..! :) hi emma! :) i love you both! :)
emma and me..
me, jals, and emma..
marcel and me..
fire.phoenix.goddess
4:43 PM
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post-lent..post-grad..
grabe..new beginnings na..graduate na ko!!..bagong buhay..more experiences..scary..more knowledge..more tears, i guess..mas pahirapan na...haaayyy..
NEVIE..I MISS YOU, FAN..kita na lang tayo sa ua&p..at least..i have one familiar (and beautiful) face to see..haha. . :)
FAYERZ..mean!!!di ka tlga nag-text di ka na nga pumunta! ewan ko tlga sayo!!!
JALS..hi! :) check your blog tapos ym ka skn if you have it na or tag ka dito..ayt..love you.. :)
POOP! i'm reading your letters na..or cards..hay...sorry tlga.. (regarding the email..) so aun...
grabe bagong buhay na..although andaming part ng buhay kong nagbago..and nagbabago..di pa rin nagbabago ung aspect ng love life ko..haha.. :)
hay..my sim card's blocked..nice na lang eh..uy, may unlimited na rin daw globe??..is it true??..you have to load daw muna P300 then text something to something then load P25 daw..
so aun..hay..wla lang tlgang magwa..nakita ko si jals nung Maundy
Thursday..surprise! la lang..hay..wla kaya akong mgwa..kaya sige na..later.
fire.phoenix.goddess
11:58 AM
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Tuesday, March 22, 2005
happy grad
happy graduation! :)
MA. LOURDES ABIGAIL CRUZ: i am so proud of you. i love you.
hahaha! we did it! yeah! :)
fire.phoenix.goddess
10:55 PM
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Monday, March 21, 2005
songs.
"coz i'm ready to fall in love tonight..ready to put my heeart on the line..i can't promise forever but baby, i'll try...coz i'm ready to fall in love tonight.."
"no more crying, no denying, i've been there before, i ain't going no more, without you..and now that you're here i never wanna say goodbye love...no more just me, i'm in love with you...and now that you're here i never wanna say goodbye love.."
"you are my soul satellite..i'd get lost in space without you..and i'll never lose my faith in you...coz i know that i, i'll be lost in space without you.."
"i won't go, i won't sleep, i can't breath..until you're resting here with me.i won't leave, i can't hide, i cannot be...until you're resting here with me.."
fire.phoenix.goddess
8:25 PM
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dbti manda's seniors prom
dbti manda's seniors prom
haha. :) unexpectedly, napapunta ko sa ball ng dbti manda with adrian ng di oras. hay jals. sira ka tlga. pero okay lang.andming pictures.sana lang hindi i-post ni jals, diba..coz i don't really want my face plastered on the screen..anyway..ang kulit nung friends ni adrian. ang funny ng mga kwento.really liked the thing with the glass..ang astig!!..pinapatunog ung glass..ang lakas tlga..i thought frequency lang un..then sabi ni adrian, ung glass un..ang galing kaya..
singit lang: JALS, sino ung namimiss mo? :) no describing of what i wore, ayt.
so aun.prang kakulay ko halos lahat ng bagay na binigay sakn..the rose and the dewberry thingy..pano ba naman, i wore a red gown.. so aun..tapos we had our picture taken.ang kulit.i know i look terrible.****! sorry, adrian if it will come out terrible.. (fault #1)
hay..ano pa ba?..oh yeah..we didn't dance but the dance floor was crowded.hello?! with their student population, it was almost a miracle they didn't bump the tables..
oh.andaming feminates..ang sexy na lang eh.feeling ko natatalbugan ako..hehe.. :) so feminine!..ayt.
ay grabe..nung prinesent ung promenade whatever..hihi..tlgang nauna pa kami..tama ba naman un..nice name ha.. "haya"..ayt. sorry ulit adrian..(fault #2)..coz muntikan na kaming hindi maglakad..sobrang nakakahiya..tska todo pansin ung height difference tlga!!! =s haha.. :)
tapos aun..we had our pictures taken muna..kaya yan tuloy, late kami nkakain..and adrian didn't get to drink iced tea.. (fault # 3)..one round lang daw eh we haven't had one yet.. (oo, adrian.msarap ang san mig light with iced tea.but i don't drink much.)
what else did we do ba..oh.. tumayo kami..umupo..tumayo.. antagal mag-cr ni adrian..pero galing ah.huli mo kung anong ginawa ko kaya ang bilis ko..hihi.. :)
JALS, pakisabi na lang salamat.. :)and sorry for the above-mentioned faults.
hi poop..i read your cards na..thank you.. i love you!
fire.phoenix.goddess
10:31 AM
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Thursday, March 17, 2005
conscience
i am torn apart between wanting to go to jkat's house and telling my mom the true reason..actually, the only reason i really need to go to jkat's house was so yan could come..she can't come alone.. so i have to come..but i told my mom it's ate lj's birthday, yadda-yadda-yadda..whatever..so there..it's not exactly bad but it's really eating up my conscience..
anyway..it's been a couple of days since i last saw poop..aww.. but we're constantly on the phone and texting each other soo much so it's a bit okay..but still, it's different when you see the actual person, aight..anyway..i miss you, though..
had my friendster testimonials back.
i still can't get girls who tie their hair so high, thinking it looks seductive and whatev..but it is so not.it's so flirty. (hey this is my blog so back off with your comments). so there.
i took a couple of quizzes..i'm gonna die at the age of 82?..whoah, long life huh..
The Goddess of Night and Regret. You are a perfect
confidante. Always understanding and
solicitous, you could be a queen and you are
exceptionally honest. You are an intelligent
beauty.
Which gorgeous goddess are you?
You have an entrancing kiss~ the kind that leaves
your partner bedazzled and maybe even feeling
he/she is dreaming. Quite effective; the kiss
that never lessens and always blows your
partner away like the first time.
What kind of kiss are you?
You're the innocent girl next door. You are
friendly, cheerful, kind, and happy. You like
to spread your happiness around making people
feel warm and joyous. To do this you like to
bake cookie and muffins while giving kind
compliments. Plus you actually give apples to
your teachers. You're pure and innocent and
most likely haven't broken many rules. Everyone
loves you. How can they not?
What kind of girl are you? (with pix!)
1.last person u wrote a letter:
-- poop!
2. sport you would least play:
-- i dunno..daring ako maglaro eh..i wanna prove to myself i can do it..haha..:)
3. last movie u watched:
-- uhm..richie rich ata..
4. what do people first notice when they see u?
-- the hair.
5. do you like peanut-butter?
-- yes!..yummy!
6. last person who texted(sms-ed) you?
-- poop!
7. do you read comics?
-- when they're available..
8. how pretty/handsome are u?
-- i'm..i'm ewan..poop?!
9. do u like earthquakes?
-- never experienced them..i mean, hindi ko nararamdaman..
10. worst nightmare?
-- oh..nung sinabihan akong..di na ko mahal..
11. most beautiful place u've visited?
-- everywhere is beautiful as long as the sunset exists..hihi..:)
12. wanna be a celebrity?
-- nope. =)
13. do u like surveys?
-- yup =)
14. your close friends:
-- poop.jkat.yan.fayerz.gel.emma.sabel.jals.
15. most people would describe me as:
-- makulit!!!
16. one thing u hate about urself:
-- my being maarte..
17. vegetable u hate:
-- lahat!..except cabbage, i guess.
18. u like to go out on a grocery with?
-- my mom and dad..
19. favorite person/s in the world?
-- poop!!!!!
20. can you dance?
-- oh no.
21. favorite past time?
-- read..
22. are you happy?
-- yessss!!
23. do you believe in God?
-- yupyupyup.
24. what is the worst rumor you've heard
about yourself?
-- that friendster message kay rej daw.. that people thought i wrote..tska na i date senior peeps.
25. what is the most stupid thing u did?
-- uh-oh..
26. are u in love?
-- YES!!!
27. what is your greatest asset?
-- my hair.love my hair. :)
28. what time is it?
-- 05:36 p.m.
29. aside from answering this survey, what else are you doing?
-- texting and answering quizzes..
30. first thing to do when u wake up tomorow?
-- check the time and if someone texted me.
31. Where are you right now?
-- house..
32. Wats ur fave line?
-- i love you!
33.favorite food?
-- chocolate!!!
~*~*~Natural Beauty~*~*~
You're beauty is natural. You don't need make up or
high quality clothes to make you look nice. You
are most likely popular. Deep down you might
feel a little lonely because all you really
want is people to like you for YOU, not because
you're gorgeous. Don't worry, some people will
understand and see that you are a beautiful
person inside and out. You may have a lot of
friends, but perhaps only a few close friends.
Be careful who you trust. There are a lot of
decieving people out there who might use you
for your looks or popularity. Also, do not
judge people. Just because you're pretty
doesn't mean you should go and make others
feel inferior to you. ( I don't know if you
actually do that, but just in case you do
then...don't!!)
fire.phoenix.goddess
5:38 PM
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Monday, March 14, 2005
***
grrr!!!nabura lahat ng testimonials ko sa friendster!!! nice one.. sobrang..grrr tlga..pero okay lang..hay.wla nnman akong magwa sa buhay ko..as usual..i'm too pissed to sit down..hay.. anyway.. ranting aside..i'm in my usual pissed off mood.. [ i just read a nice title of an entry: confessions of a misunderstood feminist. nice :) ]
i am too bored..i just wanna eat ice cream..and choco oat bars..hay..i'm too addicted to chocolate and i don't have any.. i just can't eat the chocolates poop gave..ang ganda kasi eh..haha.. :)
ayan..poop's awake na..i can finally log off.. *sigh*
fire.phoenix.goddess
3:49 PM
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la
wla nnman akong mgwa sa buhay ko..hay..wla lang..wla nga akong masabi eh..namimiss ko na tlga si faye.. hay faye..musta kna kya?..la lang..grr haeja..naiinis ako coz i keep on blogging i have nothing to say and im wasting my time sitting on my butt blogging like i have something important to say.
i love you poop!
i miss you so much!!
sige na tlga..naloloka na ko dito..ingat..
fire.phoenix.goddess
1:46 PM
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Friday, March 11, 2005
la lang
kinukulit ako ni agie..lalang..aun..tgal kong hindi nagblog..
la lang..
ang saya ko tlga nung 09!!!..thanks mrs. raceli..hehehe..:)
hay..hay..hay...naku jkat..itikom ang bibig..naku tlga..
hay nako..one of my walang-mgwa surveys..
1) brand of ur handy phone?
- aun.ung brand nya..
2) what'll you do if you see ur gf/bf hugging a
guy/girl?
- kung girl.sanay nako...guy?..mejo malabo..but if ever.. hoy..!!!
3) have a gf/bf?
- :)
4) have ur own room?
- no..yaw ko..pero minsan..gusto ko rin!!..for some reasons..hehe!
5) fav pet?
- kapatid ko.har.;)
6) one thing you cant live w/o?
- one thing..my heart..doi..
7) where do you live?
- sa earth ng mga taong may sariling mundo..hehe..;)
8) what would you do if sum1 tells you he/she likes you?
- now?..ah okay..hi! :)
9) how are you feelin n0w?
- wala..prang..wla lang..
10) where do you hangout?
- sa room..sa school..sa kanya..heheh..:)
11) what are you good at?
- writing anything..and reading anything..
12) what is it bout a person you cant stand?
- plastik..maarte ng sobra..epal..
13) what do you want?
- nothing more..
14) a word that describes you?
- seven
15) what is ur dream?
- honestly??..malive ung dream career ko while staying in my current..07..
16) day/nite?
- night..night..night..
17) sunset/sunrise?
- sunrise is sweeter..pero kung walang sunset..wlang sunrise..
18) like a romantic bf/gf?
- oo..pero...wag sobra..lalo na ung sobrang pda..
19) what is it bout the opposite gender that attracts you?
- meron ba?!?! i guess..the eyes?
20) are you an independent person?
- i try to be..
21) do you like school?
- pwede na rin..the people..mejo..but ms..and ms..nope!!!
22) are you stubborn CHICK?
- chick?!?!how sexist can people be?!!?!
23) believe in God
- oo nman!
24) ur favourite sport?
- meron ba???
25) believe in fate?
- un ba ung mangyayari ang dapat?..i guess..
26) get pissed off easily?
- depende..
27) like ur parents?
- yep..
28) are u a materialistic person?
- am i?.i hope not..i don't think so..if hugs and kisses are materials..which i think aren't..then i'm not..
29) believe in love?
- yessss!
30) will you get a tattoo?
- i hope!!..
31) smoke?
- yuck..no way..
32) club / pub?
- neither..
33) will you forgive ur gf/bf if he cheats on you?
- yes..eventually, i will..pero i'll break things off immediately..
34) will you expect ur gf/bf to forgive you?
- forgive me?..what did i do?..if i cheated?i don't think agad..pero someday..i guess.
35) were you on a trip recently?
- trip?..illegally sa merville!
36) fav country?
- ehtong country ko..
37) are you impatient?
- mejo..maypagka..at times..
38) brands that you use in clothes?
- yrys..hihi..;)
39) do you organize parties?
- nope..
40) do u have good friends?
- yess!!
41. do u think you r good looking?
- ha?!?!ako??!?!?!?!
42) do u care about looks?
- if people can see me now, they'll believe when i say no..
43) do you think that you're a good gf/bf?
- uhmm..poop?!?!?!
44) do you use vulgarities?
- i try not to..
45) do you quarrel wid ppl easily?
- nope..pra san ba un?!?!
46) are you forgiving?
- i try..wag lang si tix..kung sya..patayan na kung patayan!
47) do you get hurt easily?
- oo..
48) do u prefer ur partner with long/short hair?
- nah.. dpende kng anu mas bgay sknya.. ehehe..
49) do you prefer girls w/ long/short hair?
- depende..kung ano mas bagay..
50) is ur hair colored?
- no..
51) are you a romantic partner?
- am i?..i try to be..while trying to hold my head at the same time..
52) do you wear a watch?
- errrr...
53) what color do you like in clothes?
- white..
54) will you choose love or money?
- LOVE..love..love!
55) do you prefer slp or eat?
- hahaha!eat no..
56) Blue or black?
- blue!
57) pink or red?
- gr...pink.
58) fave flower?
- white roses..
59) do you like to receive flowers?
- oo..ang sweet kya..pero ung sincerely given lang..
60) what can you say about this survey?
- pra sa mga katulad kong wlang mgwa..
fire.phoenix.goddess
7:07 PM
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Sunday, March 06, 2005
1.how are you today?
>> sick.. :( and stressed..coz of the school stuff..
2. how do you feel right now?
>> sick.. :(
3. what are you planning to do later?
>> finish my letter..study calculus..sleep..
4. what did you eat for lunch?
>> 3 pandesal with cheese..
5. what did you drink today?
>> water..
6. what's the "thing" that you want to happen right now or sooner?
>> go to the mall with poop..hehe..
7. what are you listening to right now?
>> the whirring sound of the electric fan
8. what do you want to do right now besides chatting?
>> sleep and get well..
9. what's the most memorable memory in your life?
>> most memorable..na happy..jan.21.2005..
>> ung most memorable na natutuo ako..jan.18.2005
10. who are you thinking of right now?
>> poop
11. who's your crush?
>> meron ba..?
12. who's next to you right now?
>> no one..although, baby poop is in my lap right now..
13. who made you laugh today?
>> tix
14. who made you mad today?
>> wala..
15. who made you feel special today?
>> tix!
16. who did you receive emails from?
>> uhm..kepe pagador 3rd request for sms..i don't think she knows, though, that she's inviting me..
17. did anything bad happen today?
>> my fever got worse?!
18. did anything good happen today?
>> uhm...i ate?
19. do you want something to happen right now?
>> yes.get well.
20. do you want to hug someone right now?
>> poop..jkat..yan..bibi..
21. have you ever lied to your loved one by saying you are okay but actually your not?
>> yes..when i'm hurting..
22. have you ever had a crush on a guy/girl for 1,2,3,4 or more years before?
>> oo..
23. have you ever kept your feelings about something or someone from your bestfriend?
>> yeah..ung about kay 2nd..
24. have you ever told your crush you like him/her?
>> have i?..i think so..
25. have you ever felt that you wanted to die?
>> hihi..august 2005.
26. have you ever felt that you wanted to kill yourself?
>> oo..
27. have you ever felt that you'd rather die, than
see your loved-one suffer?
>> mas masasaktan ata siya eh.. kaya no..
28. are you happy with who you are now?
>> kind of..
fire.phoenix.goddess
1:28 PM
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Saturday, March 05, 2005
sick
i'm feeling sick.again.and my mom isn't here tonight.she won't be back till tomorrow.i miss her already.
happy birthday Ana!Abi! wala lang.last colc today..it was. was. was. just that.if it wasn't for poop,it would have been such an ordinary day.
happy 05!happy 05!happy 05!happy 05!happy 05!
i have to go.i still have to finish my eco thingy.i have nothing to say today.my mind is not working.i lost my english notebook and tomorrow, we're going to have our english exam.wow. =) hay.
gtg.
you are my first star at night/you are my soul satellite.i'll be lost in space without you.and i'll never lose my faith in you.how could i ever get to heaven, if i do...
fire.phoenix.goddess
7:09 PM
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Friday, March 04, 2005
dreamer
i think i'm too much of a dreamer.dreaming of a nonexistential world without crap.without discrimination.a world where i will be happy.where forever could exist.[lol.i don't believe it anymore, anyway.] i dream that i could mix love with acads.heck.i still would want to dream of that.i dream that i could live my life the way i want to.[who's stopping me?myself, actually.] i dream that i could do everything i want without people actually judging me.i dream that i will be the greatest entreprenuer ever. [i will always dream of that.i would love to achieve that.] i dream that i could live in my dream house and own the things i want.i dream to fulfill my probable-cannot be fulfilled dream- no need mentioning.i dream that one day, the world will be happy.without sins.i dream of perfecting myself - something i know would be kind of impossible.i dream of giving all my love once more and be fearless again.i dream that one day, i could be the best.i dream of graduating at the top of my class.i dream of conquering myself - my doubts, my fears, my self-criticisms. i dream of being in love this way always. i dream of perfection. i dream of being in heaven.i dream of my fears. i dream that one day, i will learn to sit back and contemplate my life once more.
i am feeling confused. i am unsure of how i feel. i only know one thing: i miss you.
i did something terrible kanina.after four years of listening to her freak-hell words and crap about myself, the words just came out. i was trying to memorize my eco stuff when she passed by and we looked at each other and she said, "Shut up." and i was like "shut up ka jan." oh that's so mean of me. i heat up with shame and contentment.Shame for being so damn low. Contentment of finally rubbing in her face that she is nothing to me.i am so sick of her.i do not think of her, though.she is nothing to me.but still i wonder why she's that mad when i didn't even do anything to her. duh.it ALMOST makes me regret of the past.i keep thinking what could have happened if i didn't.....hmmm..anyway, no use regretting over the past.
started reading The Alchemist again. i just love that book. i got my favorite quote from that. "One is loved because one is loved. There is no reason needed for loving."
It enlightens me so much.i learned something new today from the same book.i keep wond'ring how i could have missed that part. i read the book for like three times alread [and counting] but this is the first time the following registered in my weird mess of a brain:
that i should not worry about tomorrow.nor think about yesterday. no sense worrying about something you don't know. no sense regretting about what happened in the past.LIVE EACH DAY AS IF IT WAS YOUR LAST.you are born for the present.not for the past, nor for the future.
to achieve something, to make things the best, purify yourself. make YOURSELF the best.
learned a lot from just one book.that book inspires me so much.Thank God for Paulo Coelho.
After writing this stuff, I am slowly learning to sit back and not worry about tomorrow.And do not let my past traumas haunt me and ruin my present happiness today.
YESTERDAY HAPPENED.
TOMORROW'S A MYSTERY.
TODAY IS A GIFT.[remember that, ja.]
THAT'S WHY IT'S CALLED
'PRESENT'.
corny ba?..just read about that. wow.this is, i think, my longest entry.and deepest entry.
i have to go..live my life..hihi.. =)
fire.phoenix.goddess
8:16 PM
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love
i love you, poop!
fire.phoenix.goddess
7:08 PM
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Thursday, March 03, 2005
la lang
wala lang tlga kong magawa..our exams today (physics and filipino) were..easy..compared to the past quarters..most esp physics..i never thought it would be that easy..(to guess the answers, actually)..i am not really in the mood to blog..i just wanna shut up and let my mind drift into oblivion..
i think i forgot my unkymoods user whatev thingy..
i edited my blogdrive taggy but it's still the same.oh well.
have to go.
fire.phoenix.goddess
7:32 PM
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