my Christmas list.. :)
- 4th book ni Artemis Fowl.
- siemens sx1...or any palmheld fone..
- money
- to shop sa marks and spencer.. *sigh*
- chocolates.. [kaya lang this will make me fatter! :(]
- a huge bouquet of flowers nestled against pink paper..haha :)
- happiness..
aun lang..alam kong meron pa pero i can't remember na..so there.magppost nln ako ng surveys para msya.
[1] who is the last person who give you testimonial? * si abi..miss you abi!
[2] what comes to your mind 1st? * ano'ng oras na?
[3] what is your mom dong ryt now? * nsa office na sya eh..im all alone.. waaaah..
[4] what is your dad doing ryt now? * office din..
[5] where are you going 2m? * school..may arnis eh..
[6] did you ever dream last nyt? * oo..weird and violent.definitely not my style.
[7] what is the ringtone of your cellphone? * crazy frog! hahah! :D
[8] what is the color of your shirt ryt now? * pink spag.
[9] who is the last person who texted you? * ^bonnie^ :)
[10]what is your favorite dessert or frozen treat and it' s flavor? * chocolate ice cream or sand storm.... :) yum!
[11] what is the unit of your cellphone? * 2100..
[12] did you ever fall in love? * haha.next question.
[13] what time is it? * 8:50.i really should be doing my homework.
[14] do you have a crush? * right now, meron ulit..galing nya eh.!
[15] name her/ him? * d-n-e..hehe :)
[16] did you ever manage a big bussiness? * hindi pa naman...
[17] what was the tv show that you watch last night? * nada..too busy.. :( feel like a nerd.
[18] where did you go yesterday? * sa school..im a big nerd.
[19] what is your breakfast? * haven't eaten yet..
[20] did you ever try to ride on a truck? * ay hindi pa..
[21] what are you going to do at PICC? * why am i going there?!?!
[22] did you miss somebody except your family? * yes.
[23] who is your favorite cartoon character? * boo from monster's inc! :)
[24] your favorite number? * 07! :)
[25] what is the last thing you bought? * a ticket for travelling home.. hehe :)
[26] what is the game that you are playing this time? * billiards with abi :)
[27] how many viewed your profile? * aun.
[28] whose profile did you viewed last before doing this survey? * wla..nagmmdali ako nun eh..
[29] who is the las person you think before sleeping? * siya.
[30] who is the last person you saw before sleeping? * ate ko syempre we're in the same room..
[31] what is your favorite subject? * dati civ..ngayon..art! art! art!
[32] are you thirsty ryt now? * not really..
[33] bracelet or necklace? * necklace..im not much into bracelets..
[34] tv or radio? * any..
[35] juice or water? * water..
[36] slippers or shoes? * shoes..
[37] high heels or flat one? * i love heels..lalo n kung wedges.. :)
[38] sketchers or converse? * i don't really care..i mean, i don't buy rubbershoes..
[39] jag or lee pipes? * jag..
[40] cap or sunvisor? * caps are more useful..
[41] volleyball or basketball? * arnis! :D
[42] senti or classic? * both..i love senti songs.. :) im a mush and a wuss
[43] mall or hauz? * both.. :)
[44] sports car or truck? * eekkk. lime beetle bug.
fire.phoenix.goddess
8:22 AM
0 lovers
Sunday, November 20, 2005
sigh
come closer and hold me tight
stay in line of my sight
from now till forever..
this time, leave me never...
feel the weight of my pain
ease the pain from my being slain..
once more..
just like you did before..
wipe my tears dry...
take my hand and fly...
bring me to a new world
where i can run away...
then stay with me...
breathe with me.
im so lost without you
it sucks to be without you
this is crap.i can't even write.the thing is: magparamdam ka naman.that's all i really ask of you.i hope you're okay.feeling ko tuloy you were kidnapped or so freaking grounded.harder this time.o baka ayaw mo lang talga magparamdam.i don't know...just come here.............i need you.
survey from: sam...! :)
Do u like 2 smile? * ata..i smile when i have my reason by my side..
Do u love music? * okay lang..i don't listen to music all the time though..pag sad lang or whatever.
Who do u share all of ur most personal secrets with? * kay chie lahat.mia and aya..minsan.yung iba lang..kay jenna and danna and faye... :)
Do u love to shop? * if i had the money, i'll be at the mall everyday.
If u were given a chance to buy anything u want in the world what would it be? * di ko lam..kung pwedeng ilagay na lang sa bank, dun na lang..kung hindi, house and lot sa forbes cavite.
Why are you completing this survey? * i love surveys and for some other reason.basta.
The most:a) grossest thing u ever heard? * uhm..di ko lam eh..
b) yummiest thing u ever ate? * marami..pero fettucini tlga ng mum ko.the best.
c) cutest boy/girl ever saw? * naman.do i really have to answer that? haha.
If u were given a chance to rule acountry, what country would it be? * i wanna rule this country with an iron fist and an arch eyebrow! haha!!!
The time you're confused the most? * whenever i sat during mrs. adri's trigonometry class.
The thing that would make u like a guy/girl? *pag gentleman, mabait, and sweet.. :) tska funny! :)
Are u always happy? lately, IM NOT
Are u easily jealous? oo..sobra.
Do u always share drinks with a boy/girl? *not really.with a girl, yes kasi friends naman eh.guys, no way.
Are u noisy? *when im with my friends or when im having a really nice time..
Do u know how to rollerblade? * yes..
Do u like to give hugs? *i like to give and to receive hugs..
Do u know how to ice skate? *mejo lang..tried it once and i had a really good time.
Do u prefer guys/girls who curse or aguy/girl who loves to touch u? *no to both.except...
Are u a goody-goody or a naughty kid? *im a really good kid.mistaken lang for bad.haha.
Do you think of your future? *oo, sobra.
Do you easily fall in love? *pag nasa kaniya hinahanap ko..oo..
Are you addicted to someONE now? * yes.
Did you get pissed or pleased when people gave you a surprising moment? *ewan ko..okay lang naman..
Are u a complicated person? * i can be if i want to..depende sa tao eh..
What is your middle name? * miras..
Last person you kissed? *si aya sa cheek kanina..
What are you listening to right now? *wala.
what are the last 2 digits in your phone number? *17
What was the last thing you ate? *soup of the day by pancake house.
If you were a crayon what color would you beand why? * di ko lam eh..siguro white.
How is the weather right now? * ewan ko..pero lately super lamig..msaya sana kung... :(
Who was the last person you talked to on the phone? *jenna..
The first thing you notice about the opposite sex? *smile.i love smiles.
favorite Food? *fettucini alfredo.i'm crazy over fettucini.
Do you drink? *alcohol, not really
Do you smoke? *no.eew.gross.
Ever got so drunk you dont remember what you did? * never pa..
Hair color? *black..dark brown..
Eye color?: * brown
Do you wear contacts? *i prefer glasses eh..
Favorite Holiday? * any holiday that allows me to rest for a long period of time is fine by me..
What something you hate about yourself? *magulo and selosa.
Have you ever cried for no reason? *not really i guess..
Last Movie you Watched? *i can't remember..o yeah, catwoman on hbo..
Is there something that you regret doing atthis moment: *leaving my shoes out there.. damn me.
Are you too shy to ask someone one out? * i don't believe in girls making the first move.im too traditional for that.
If you can say something to someone right nowwhat would it be? *i really miss you.
Hugs or Kisses? *both talaga.
Chocolate or Vanilla? *chocolate!!! i'm an addict to that!!
Do you want your friends to respond? * to what ?!?
Who is most likely to respond? * no one..
Who is least likely to respond? * everyone.
What books are you reading? *my bio textbooks.
Piercings?: *1 on each ear lang..
Favorite movies? *beauty and the beast! :) un disney version ha.
favorite basketball team? baseball team? *arnis leskas.hehe :)
Are you in a relationship? * it's complicated. haha.friendster answer ah.
Any pets? *tix! just kidding.my turtle named mia.
AIM? *i don't talk about it much.
Butter, Plain or Salted popcorn? *plain..
Cats or Dogs? *both! :)
Favorite Flower? * pink roses.actually, white.
Have you ever been caught doing somethingyouwerent supposed to? *hindi naman ata..
Have you ever loved someone? *yes!
Are you still friends with your ex's? * haha.as if.
Have you ever fired a gun? *i wish.just kididng..
Do you like to travel by car? *mas comfortable kaya yes.
Right-handed or Left-handed?: *right.
If you can be with someone right now, whowould it be? *my monster!
How many pillows do you sleep with?* 9.i love being surrounded by stuff.
Do you have a tatoo? *sana nga eh..
Can you see your self married? * ewan ko ba...
fire.phoenix.goddess
7:38 PM
0 lovers
where are you?
hay..magpramdam ka naman.. please? i miss you.where are you? im worried na, actually.....paramdam ka as soon as you can, okay? call me.please? i wanna talk to you.
fire.phoenix.goddess
6:12 PM
0 lovers
Tuesday, November 08, 2005
first day and other damned stuff
ang kulit ng hitsura ko ngayon...i wore my white skirt, white shirt, a light brown jacket [my sister's] and bronze-colored shoes. sabi nga ni bok white lady daw ako.i never looked so feminine. feminine na conservative in terms of..skirt. nakashirt ako but i used a jacket coz super thin ng shirt ko, kita ang skin tone
ko, 2 shades lighter.hehe.when i bought it i didn't know na it's that thin...so yan.i arrived at school 8:15 and went to the library.my class starts at 9am every T/F and i was relieved that i arrived 45 minutes before my class started. [i hate being late, especially in school!]
my first teacher is ms.amador.she's nice.mia wasn't there yet around 9am and i didn't know the teacher was the lady on the computer.i commented pa naman na 'naku, baka magalit un teacher!' buti na lang she's nice and she smiles. that's good.God, nag-class agad kami.we watched a film about greek and roman architecture which was okay.ganda talaga ng statues dati but i don't to have one
at my home.way tooooo freaky.
my next teacher was supposed to be Mr. Arnel Joven.my favorite teacher of all time.if you study at my school, be sure to get him.he's the best teacher in the whole world.i like his teaching style.he's not pikon and he's really friendly. i even sat on the chair in front of him! i was THAT excited. then a
woman came in.i thought she was a substitute and i was still optimistic though i was wondering where Mr. Joven was. my mind just won't accept that she might be my teacher. o damn. she closed the door. i looked around class and hello, the room is filled to the last chair.WE were ALL [emphasis on the all] eager for Mr.
Joven.Then she introduced herself to us. She's our teacher for the whole sem! Freak!!! I can't accept it!!! Noooooooooooooooo!!!!! My classmates won't either and one even had the balls to ask, 'escuse me, is this Mr. Joven's class?' one classmate even dropped that subject out of dismay.she cried while talking to
Mr. Joven! I was so disappointed, to think that i centered all my classes around that subject only to find out that the teacher i wanted to have was replaced! Oh my.That sucked big time.i had a talk with Mr. Joven and he explained to us that that morning, when he arrived, there was a note telling him that he's not going
to be our teacher anymore.i was so dismayed!!! Damn that freaking registrar! naman!!!!He doesn't even have a class at 10:30 so why remove him? naman!!!
After a 3-hour break, it's my Filipino, 3-4:30. okay, i'm pretty optimistic about her class.i know i'll get a good grade, i just have to be creative and be concentrated.i know i can do it even if i'm so bored with the subject.
i went home agad. my heart thundered like hell as i passed by E------a for fear of seeing some people i really don't want to see, lalo na i got the window seat. Thank God there weren't no insects or anything yucky-thingy. Anyway, as I got near that much-fretted place, from afar, i saw the skirt i knew so well and i can hardly breathe.Thankfully, there weren't anyone then i saw her.i was so
shocked because she even rode the same bus! She sat in the back, buti na lang i sat on the front.grabe talaga.i tried to talk to her when we both got off the bus but i didn't see her after that so I went home.i know i have to talk to her and all but there just never seems to be an opportunity...i don't know if it's fate or what.but whatever.
I saw on TV a strip of news about a museum inside the Bilibid Prison. You know what kind? A death penalty museum! As in, andun ung pictures ng mga taong nacondemn with death penalty...since 1920's pa daw and the first ones to get that sentence were Japanese prisoners of war. tapos meron pang mga electric chairs. ung mga unang electric chairs na ginamit dati.You know why they did that, to
show how much they changed na daw...tapos may mga livelihood stuff that the prisoners do daw...
ay grabe.ngaun ko lang nalaman na ung mga plays na pinapalabas pala nila sa school bayad na, kasama na sa tuition. so im gonna take every opportunity to watch every freaking play that i can cram into my schedule.
so un lang.it's one hell of a day. parang roller-coaster.happy-dismay-happy-surprise-nothingness.
i hate my wisdom teeth.they're just teeth made to give pain to mankind or for others, made to make the dentists/surgeons richer and us poorer. grrr..
gtg.ingat.....what a freaking time
fire.phoenix.goddess
8:08 PM
0 lovers
Monday, November 07, 2005
observe the world around me
surveys muna..hmmm...
1. Nakikinig ka ba sa teacher?
~most of the time..
2. Kumain ka ba ng balot?
~dati..ngayon hindi na eh..
3. Sumuka ka na ba sa sobrang hilo?
~dati..when i got really sick..
4. Nakagulpi ka na ba ng tao?
~haha..hindi.gulong oo..sana nga tao un eh. [bad..]
5. Nang mamanyak ka ba?
~kay monster..hihi :) sabi nila oo..pag pinapalo ko butts ng friends ko..hehe. there's no malice in that naman eh..
6. Naninigarilyo ka ba?
~yuck......
7. Uminom ka ba hanggang hindi ka na makatayo?
~no..
8. Nkasakay ka na ba ng kalabaw?
~hindi!!horse pa lang..nung high school..saya nga eh.. :)
9. Naramdaman mo na bang mamamatay ka na?
~oo..hehe :) natural and self-made causes. hihi
10. Nayakap mo na ba crush mo?
~oo.. :) pero wala akong crush ngayon eh..
11. Naglalaro ka ba ng apoy?
~nung bata ako! enjoy nga eh.. :)
12. Napaiyak ka na ba sa sakit ng katawan?
~no..sabi ni tix pain-tolerant ako..which i guess is true.
13. Masakit bang masuntok?
~oo!si mavic kasi eh!
14.Marunong ka bang magRO?
~hindi kami nagganyan eh.. :( sayang..
15. Handa ka bang mamatay para sa iniibig mo?
~depende.
16. Masarap bang kumain ng pagkain?
~sobra!!i mean, i have to watch the figure and all pero mmm..sarap kumain eh... :)
18. Namamato ka ba ng bato?
~ngayon? hindi.gamit lang.hehe :)
19. Nagtaksil ka na ba sa kapwa mo o kahit sino man?
~ha..ewan ko..i guess so..
20. Nakatapak ka na ba ng tao?
~oo ata..
21. Nakatanggap ka na ba ng regalo sa buong buhay mo?
~yes..
22. Nag-iimagine ka na ba ng bad?
~oo..lahat naman ata eh..
23. Nakikita mo ba sarili mo sa salamin?
~oo..hindi ako mumu..monster lang..
24. Alchoholic ka ba?
~no way! eew!
26. Nakapanood ka na ba sa sinehan?
~oo naman..
27. Gusto mo bang pumatay ng tao?
~hindi nga....
29. Nakasuntok ka na ba ng kaibigan?
~si ian.pero di kami friends eh.basta hindi.
30. Gusto mo na bang mamatay?
~no way..
31. Nakipag away ka ba na umabot sa OPS?
~hindi ata...
32. Nawala na ba ang id mo?
~kala ko lang pero hindi pa naman..buti na lang...
33. Nawawala mo ba pera mo?
~hindi..
34. May nagsabi na ba sayo na tamad ka?
~oo..mga tao sa paligid ko..except si kat.hindi daw ako tamad eh.ewan ko ba dun..
35. May crush ka ba?
~NIL. :)
36. Sinabi mo na ba sa crush mo ang nararamdaman mo?
~no way..ayoko nga.pero somehow, they get that information.hmm..
37. Napaaway ka na ba?
~oo..!kay ian!haha..
38. Nagsinungaling ka na ba?
~oo..when worse comes to worst..
39. May nagtangka bang nakawan ka?
~wla pa ata..
40. Namimis mo ba ung crush mo?
~no..
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1.nagsampay ka na ba ng damit mo sa likod ng ref nyo?
*** oo! :)
2.kumain ka ba ng chocolate ngayong araw na to?
*** wala ngang chocolate eh :( gusto ko ng cadbury.. :(
3.huling mall na pinuntahan mo?
*** hm..sm bic ata..
4.latest movie na pinanood mo?
*** dark light sa hbo..
5.umutang ka na ba sa tindahan?
*** no..
6.napanood mo ba yung concert ni allan, gladys at janno?
*** ano un? naaa...
7.kelan ka huling nagswimming?
*** nung nagpunta kaming palawan nung sembreak..saya! :)
8.nakapanood ka na ba ng live sa eat bulaga?
*** i never dreamed of doing so.
9.nagperform ka na ba sa isang play? anong character mo?
*** naman.angel.aswa ni herod.taong bayan.tao.worshipper.hehe :)
10.nasan ka ba ngayon ha?
*** sala..
11.iyakin ka no?
*** oo grabe. little mermaid makes me cry.hehe :)
12.kelan ka huling sumakay sa bangka?
*** nung nagpunta kaming palawan..im not sure of the date eh..
13.nakapunta ka na ba sa cubao?
*** oo pero dumaan lang kami ni ma..
14.edi nakapasok ka na sa gateway mall
*** hindi pa ata..
15.anong masasabi mo sa gateway mall?
*** aba ewan..
16.kumakain ka ba sa 7-11?
*** dati..
17.bumili ka na ba ng damit sa ukay2x?
*** uh..hindi eh..
18.na harass ka na ba nung nalasing ka?
*** hindi pa nga ko nalalasing eh..sayang.joke :)
19.sino katabi mo matulog?
*** wala..i mean.basta.mga bears ko..
20.nakipag away ka na ba sa school nyo?
*** i think.inaaway nila ko eh..hehe :) tahimik lang ako..si reg ata at d***..si choi.sino pa ba? haha :)
21.ano yung mga weird things na nagawa mo na?
*** ewan ko...di ko lam eh..
22.huling prutas na kinain mo?
*** mango..sarap! :)
23.huling song na kinanta mo?
*** kandila - sugarfree...ang ganda...
24.ano pala masasabi mo dun sa last movie na pinanood mo?
*** wala..it's okay..
25.close ba kayo ng mga pinsan mo?
*** not all...
26.ows? talaga? promise?
*** ?!?!
28.may ring ka bang suot?
*** wala eh..tinapon ko..dba monster?
29.ano yan, silver, gold or tanso lang?
*** un..silver..gusto ko white gold.hehe
30.e ano naman yung pinapakikinggan mo?
*** si tix, kumakanta at tumutugtog ng 'you'-karen carpenter..
31.nagsuklay ka na ba?
*** hindi ko gawain un!!wala un sa mundo ko!
32.kelan mo huling inaway kapatid mo? umamin ka!
*** ewan ko..i don't really keep track of it.
33.sino fave mo sa PBB?
*** wala eh..si SAY na lang.
34.sa tingin mo, bading ba si Uma ng PBB?
*** oo, feeling ko tlga.
35.natumba ka na ba sa bike?
*** oo.hehe ;)
36.e nadapa ka na ba?
*** oo.hehe :)
37.kelan mo huling nakasama mga barkada mo?
*** barkada..nung enrollment..
38.fave show mo sa mtv?
*** wala eh..basta maganda ung videos okay na.
39.nakapunta ka na ba sa intramuros?
*** oo.enjoy nga ko dun eh..parang pinoy.pinoy.pinoy talaga dun.
40.kelan ka huling gumamit ng webcam?
*** never.
41.kelan ka huling nagpagupit ng buhok?
*** nung summer siguro..
42.anong gagawin mo pag nanalo ka sa lotto?
*** depende sa price..let's say..3million.i'll 1million for my school fees.so 2million na lang.i'll go to england and italy with my family.singapore.disney land.tapos lalagay ko sa bank.
43.ang tanong, tumataya ka ba sa lotto?
*** hindi eh.hihi :)
44.epal ka ba sa mga friends mo?
*** ewan ko..am i?
45.anong plano mo ngayong halloween?
*** matulog.hehe
46.anong madalas mong gawin sa sementeryo pag nov.1?
*** umupo sa nitsa.hehe :)
47.may malapit bang mall dyan sa bahay nyo?
*** sm bicutan.hehe :)
48.anong oras na ba?
*** 06:18pm
49.san ka huling nagpunta?
*** sa.......simbahan kahapon..
50.what is the scientific name of acacia tree?
*** acacia....ewan ko.i'll ask pag nagkita na kami, ayt? :)
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1. friends or boyfriend/girlfriend?
* friends.monster friends.hehe :)
2. college or high school?
* college!!! i miss my fourth year, though. i mean..un skul, not the admin..
3. angelina jolie or julia roberts?
* julia roberts.
4. brad pitt or tom cruise?
* brad pitt.ang gwapo!
5. basketball or volleyball?
* basketball pag ate ko or friends ko naglalaro..otherwise,,i'll go with volleyball.
6. eastwood or malate?
* i've never been to either.
7. redhorse or strong ice?
* ...........neither............
8. tequila or vodka?
* ...........neither............
9. mcdo or jollibee?
* jollibee noh..for some personal reason, i dislike mcdo but their chocolate sundae is cheaper and their twister fries are yummy..
10. grudge or ring?
* eew.neither.
11. siNgLe or tAkEn
* sino? monsters rule :)
12. go for younger or older? (bf/gf)
* uhmmm..
13. j.lo or janet jackson?
* j.Lo
14. rubbershoes or sandals?
* sandals.
15. lotr or harry potter?
* harry potter na lang..lotr bores me.
16. cellphone or computer?
* uhm..both.
17. globe or smart or sun?
* sana sun..[sigh]
18. Christmas vacation or summerbreak?
* both....kaya lang summer bores me..
19. brains or goodlooks?
* brains, definitely.nakakamatay pag walang alam kausap mo!
20. have you watched return of the king?
* no...
21. when?
* .........
22. counterstrike or ragnarok?
* ... neither...
23. adventurous or romantic movie?
* romance..hehe :)
24. winston or marlboro?
* ...neither....
25. manila bulletin or inquirer or phil star?
* i trust inquirer most.
26. abs or gma?
* ABS.although pareho lang silang copycats ng isa't-isa.
27. pillow w/o blnket or blnket w/o pillow?
* eeeee....blanket without pillow.i can't sleep without something covering me..
28. girbaud or esprit?
* marithe francois girbaud
29. badminton or tabletennis?
* table tennis..
30. kisses or toblerone?
* kisses!!sobrang sarap..lalo na pag with almonds..yummm....
31. math or science?
* eeekkkk...science na lang..
32. nokia or samsung?
* kahit ano.ano ba mas quality?
33. beermen or ace?
* neither
34. o'sullivan or deuel?
* neither.
35. bmw or mb?
* mb.
36. mango or banana?
* mangoes.i frown upon bananas.
37. malls or bars?
* malls..hehe.
38. y ru answern this?
* kasi wala talaga kong magawa...
39. would you answer more surveys such as this?
* siguro..
40. who do you think will read this?
* si monster.
41. what's up?
* the roof.haha
42.bakit namimigay ng regalo si santa?
* para un mga taong walang regalo, may matanggap.hihih.
44.bkit malaki ang mata ng mga anime?
* para pa-cute.hihi
45. bakit tinawag na hello kitty si hello kitty?
* coz when you see a kitty..you say hello.heheheheheheh
46. bakit hindi na lang hi kitty?
* hm.don't worry, tatanong ko pag nagkita na kami. :)
47. dami ba tanong ko?
* okay lang..at least may ginagawa..
48. ano favorite mong color/s?
* white.black.lime.gold..pink
49. ano favorite mong tv show?
* ha..wala eh..totally spies siguro..
50. last question. ilan na ang naging cellphone mo?
* let's see...5110..3310..bosch..5210..tapos un ngayon..2100..so.. panglima ko na to! hehe :)
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nwei..napansin ko lang..nagbloghopping kasi ko kanina.tapos parang ang dark nung dalawa..un isa naman, walang kwenta..i mean, hindi sya interesting..un isa, God, parang ako dati.heartbroken na puro poems ang blog nya! napaisip tuloy ako..never knew na ganun sya.na ganun..basta.tapos when i got the chance to get my friendster to work, ang sad nung name nung isa..im not okay.parang..okay...wala lang.ang sad naman ng mga tao sa school..nung nagcollege ako, parang ang saya ng mundo..looking back on my last link sa taro, parang ang lungkot ng mga tao? i don't have a reason to be sad.if anything, im happy.majorly.
excited na ko magpasukan.nako joven, uno na ko sayo tlga. i'll make sure of that.naku naku naku..excited na ko makita si ian, get a stick and hit him in the head with all my might.whenever i see that son of a gun, i get this urge to slap him.haha.he's so damn irritating kasi eh!!! sobra talaga.his personality ranks there with mark and carlo on the crummiest personalities [na guy].. sobra. laln..
monster bakit ba ayaw maniwala nila yayhie ha? kaw kasi nagtinginan pa kayo ni kc.announcement: yayhie..dina..danna g..hindi po. hehe :) diba monster, hindi naman? for them, at least hindi.
miss ko na sila...
babyboy,
babygirl,
fayerz ko..
chamimay
chippy! :)
darling06 ko.. :'(
monster ko..
baby gulp..
COLC..si abi..!
sugar16 :)
hay..laln..ang ganda tlga ng 'you're beautiful' ni james blunt.. mejo sad nga lang pero it's nice..actually, wala lang akong magawa kayo i keep on rambling on about semi-useless stuff.
napansin ko parang napakapolitical ng pieces ko lately.this is sooo not a political blog.those are just thoughts crammed in my head which i sooo wanted to release.
napansin ko lang.im so sentimental and i love bright colors..kasi happy pag bright..unlike in this blog, when i go for bright, im not hiding under the happy-facade.im not..masaya lang magopen ng blog na happy....naaapektohan nga ko pag nakakakita ako ng blog na malungkot eh..parang ang dark.that's why i love black WITH white, lime, yellow, gold..basta bright and happy colors..kaya enjoy ako sa orange..sa bright pink..sa lime.sa yellow..ang saya eh..nkakalift ng sad mood..kaya nga tuwa ako sa blog ko eh..kasi white.it's actually semi-pink but it's so light pink it's almost white.nuf said. andami na talagang nagbabagong buhay noh..wala lang..feeling ko lang..
what you see is what you get pala no..i mean, sa'kin..except when i act my best..when i hide every tear behind every laugh..sa mga piling tao lang ako hindi nagtatago..but when i have to hide, i hide. o sige na..i gtg. ingat!!
miss you monster ko!!!
fire.phoenix.goddess
6:54 PM
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Sunday, November 06, 2005
weird
the weirdness of things just puzzle me. they make me rack my brain for possible answers and what-ifs.
i have so many unanswered questions..maybe i'll carry them to my grave..maybe those questions are better left unanswered..but i can't rest peacefully if i don't know what happened. i have to know.that's how i operate...i have to know every angle before moving.maybe i'm like this because already took too many risks to not to be careful anymore.i'm just scared of the pain corners bring. i might be like this but i do take risks every now and then. jenna knows that, don't you? hihi :) [thanks for the precautions, kat.. :)] i'll be fine.maybe someday i'll learn to take a step with closed eyes and learn to live with it and just move on.coz that's how life is.that's what a life is.a cycle...maybe my life moves too fast; maybe too slow. but i do know that with every step, i'll have you beside me..diba? i know i'll always have chimmy and faye to verbally abuse. angel, jaja, and pyra to answer my love questions.. jkat, yan, and chie to tease, care for, laugh at and with..so there..yun lang..take care ... :) feels good to let the whole world know how i feel. hehe :)
fire.phoenix.goddess
2:05 PM
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candy-colored fonts and other ramblings
it's sunday once again and i can't help listening to magic 89.9. parang sunday is the best time to listen to the radio.hehe :) parang ang sarap pag sunday.no stress, no worry! kahit may sakit pa ko.
i realized i don't see you smile often.even when I see you, you don't smile.why? slowly, i'm beginning to know you better and i feel nice about that. angaling noh, after so many months, im starting to know you which is such a good thing. :) im happy about that..lalang. :)
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*Whats the last movie you watched?
[*] sa cinema: 40-year old virgin.. (i don't go out much)..sa house, mulanII..!!! :)
*If you could put together a concert of 5 bands, which bands would you choose?
[*] m.y.m.p, southborder, sugarfree, coldplay, orange and lemons!! :)
*Lyrics that sum up your love life?
[*] especially for you siguro..fix you? di ko lam....!
*Latest addiction?
[*] nil.getting the phlegm out of my system.joke..siguro books pa rin...
*Have you ever had the slight urge to kill someone?
[*] of course...naman.but i didn't act on that..
*What book are you reading right now?
[*] just finished reading hailey books..shopaholic takes manhattan..im still finding books to devour..
* ...bothers you right now?
[*] i know it's skin-deep pero im bother that i can't return liz's smile sa friendster..hehe :)
* ... was the best thing that happened to you this week?
[*] i don't know..nkapag-enroll siguro ko..joke lang..
* ... will you wish for if you have a genie?
[*] cd records..good business for my fam..to see the afore-mentioned bands play..to be happy..which is..
WHO...
* .the last person you went out with?
[*] family...
* ... completes your day?
[*] hmm? friends..
WHEN...
* ... will you watch a movie?
[*] pag lumabas na ang chicken little..or pag talagang napilitan, harry potter..it bores me now.
* ... was the last time you asked for help?
[*] nung enrollment.hehe :)
*What's In Your VCD Player?
[*] nil.
*What Time Did You Wake Up Today?
[*] past 7 am..
*Current hairstyle:
[*] ganun pa rin..still my wonderful, curly hair..hihi :)
*Can You Play An Instrument?
[*] yes, the piano..a bit lang.
*What were you doing 12AM last night:
[*] playing the computer.. had fun :)
*What do you think you'll be doing in 10years?
[*] happily working my ass off
*Are you paranoid?!
[*] oo naman.... :)
*First enemy?
[*] a few years after i was born, i met the thundering person of.
*Last crush?
[*] can't remember..si..m---- ata..
*Last CD/song played?
[*] hehe :) ever after !! :)
*Last annoyance?
[*] my cough and colds grr.
*San ka pupunta bukas?
[*] wala..sa 8 pa pasukan eh.. :) im soooo bored nga lang..
*Anong gagwin mo dun?
[*] wala..matutulog as usual...magisa lang ako!! :(
*Anong iniisip mo ngayon?
[*] sana gumaling na ko..wala na bang ibang magawa sa internet?
*San ka nakatira? (condo, village, apartment, etc.)
[*] sa milky way galaxy, universe, solar system, earth, asia, philippines, NCR, metro manila, paranaque, village. :)
*Sino ang gusto mo patayin ngayon?
[*] wala, syempre.. :)
* Anong ideal age mo to marry?
[*] ewan ko..hihi :) kahit kelan basta stable na ko and ready..
* Meron ka bang true friends?
[*] yes, thank God.i love them all.
* the place to be?
[*] kung nasan ung taong nakakapagpasaya sa'kin..at may food, malamig at comfortable.hehe :)
* latest regret?
[*] i don't like to regret anything eh...i have to stand by the things i did..diba? so there..i don't like regrets and i have nil regrets.
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hay..yey, nakapag-survey ulit ako, finally satiated my taste for answering surveys though i want more....laln.. im chatting with pyra right now.. hmmm.. happy monthsary sa inyo!! :) so there..i have to go now... mwuahugs!!
uy! :)
fire.phoenix.goddess
1:27 PM
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traditions and random thoughts
watched MulanII kanina sa disney..it's nice but i like the first one better..i have this thing about originality..or traditions.. got to thinking that maybe traditions are not such a bad thing.. i mean, old practices can still be done but we have to go with the flow..i guess most of the time, it happens.
i got to thinking that maybe if we go back to our age-old traditions..though not the nomadic times nor the pre-spanish times.i mean, when we were experiencing prosperity..[for a time, i hope we did experience that.]..i also wondered..if we closed our doors to the world for a while, what would happen? sure, sobrang daming riots, i mean for such a long time we're the dumping place of all the retched products Japan, China, and the US produce and suddenly, we're not available for their dump anymore..so what would happen? will we be like China who progressed? Japan who's so advanced?bakit ang ibang countries na nakaexperience far greater pain than we have, progressive na? even vietnam's better than us. what's happening? sometimes, i think communism and the closed-door policy is the best thing we can ever have.i'll even welcome marcos back.though not with imelda marcos tagging along. he's good.probably the smartest president ever.he just got corrupted as with the problem in most politicians.
sometimes, i just want to let the whole world think that communism would be good.discipline is sooo not a bad thing. power is not a bad thing. money is not a bad thing. abuse of these, however, is a bad thing.too much discipline begets wariness, possibly opposition. from too much power arises morale degenaration. overflowing cash gives you too much reign on life and you lose a touch of what things really matter. sometimes, if we just step back, maybe we'll see what's really good for us. sigh.if only the shoutouts of a seventeen-year old kid like me could be heard all over the nation.
And thus, i'll stand alone in the darkness and judging stares with no hand to hold except God's, and God's alone. So help us, God.
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good post by jenna :) on Nov. 1, 2005...**worth mentioning** http://jkat13.blogs.friendster.com
fire.phoenix.goddess
12:33 AM
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Wednesday, November 02, 2005
stuff i think
i read kanina an article about the philippines..we've stepped back from progress.AGAIN.as always.hay.high rate of poverty daw.you know what i think? that poverty can be solved if only those people in the slums who are not well-off;who are included in the poverty line; should stop getting themselves pregnant, thus increasing the poverty rate.more mouths to feed, more babies to take care, more people to pollute and then blame everything on the government. hell.
they vote every election time, expecting the leaders to make a miracle and make them millionaires.duh.that's not how it works, people?!? im just really tired of seeing the poverty around us and know that it's partly their fault too..they should make an effort to meet the government programs at least halfway..tapos ang tamad-tamad pa nating mga pinoy.sometimes i just wish to get out of here and work like hell.so there.gusto ko lang mag-rant about them.
hay.i reread some stuff i wrote back then..eew tlga.kadiri to think that i took track of..basta.ala lang.tapos may narealize ako..na hindi ko man lang agad napansin..am i manhid? i guess i am.it never occurred to me na matagal na pala.on both sides.maybe i was just too blind or maybe it was too surreal to begin with.ngaun, everything's like a dream with reality creeping in every now and then and a flashback from the past pops in suddenly at the most unthinkable of moments and when i don't really want to remember anything.
so there..i just want to get things out of my system..now i understand what they mean when they ask:
who will you choose, the one who loves you or the one you love?
fire.phoenix.goddess
3:09 PM
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