Sunday, June 26, 2005
whatever
hay.im so evil sometimes.but that's not the point.i just want to type [as usual] ang mga kabaliwan na naiisip ko.pero syempre kanta ulit.
you're a positive motivating force within my life...
you are the one thing that keeps me smiling..."
you give me a reason for this feeling...and i love what im feeling...
all this time away, is killing me inside...
hello there.
i miss you
fire.phoenix.goddess
8:30 PM
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do not regurgitate
thinking of my beloved term paper
while trying to come up with a great topic for my philsoc [philippine society and culture] term paper, i suddenly realized [like it..poof!it became koko-crunch!..yeah, like that,] na during my high school years, i hardly used my brain.YEAH.I DIDN'T. amazing. i mean, yes, i had to use like an itsy-bitsy percent to think of how to answer mrs. adri's test creatively and maybe score some 'effort points' but then..it just isn't THINKING. And yes, there were actually times when i super-forced myself to use like..1-2% of my brain and actually understand the mathematical concepts and all that pythagorean stuffs and that a=c and b=c is acutally a=b...but that was easy.and now in ua&p, im really digging deeper into my brain just to pass my one subject.my philsoc subject to be exact.and this is just the start...maybe i'll regret this [but hopefully not]..id like to thank ua&p na.haha. :D kulit ba. hehe. pero grabe tlga.im starting to think na.and this is so..college....
classic lit.the best.i just love classic lit.i use my brain, analyzing ILIAD..and it's so amazing.bsta, it really is amazing and im starting to wonder if maybe i should start rereading all my books and analyze each of them.or maybe not. so there.dito na muna ang aking academic rambling.
missing fayerz 2
i miss you fayerz.still. :)
no, don't think na sagabal ka sa'kin.you're not..with all the craziness im experiencing, i need all the non-college people i can talk to..college..college is treating me like it should.does it make sense?..it's hard.funny.it has it's moments.stressing.kapagod.its making me long for sleep and highschool life.but not really.coz im loving it.all the stress.all the problems.it's so.life.
yeah, i know you miss me.haha :) but rest assured..i miss you too. :) wala na makikinig sa crap ko about life.lovelife.schoollife. im thankful for my friends but it just isn't the same.hehe :) syempre.4years.uncomparable.:) [matouch ka...] please.you'll probably laugh at me.golly.parang napakamature na nila.almost all of them wear make-up and im still this beautiful kid. ;D mejo kainsecure.dun ka nalang mag-aral, sama tayo :) punta kong school some time.sana nga magkita tayo sometime eh..laln.di pa ko nagsasawa sa'yo..kaw pa.i love you fayerz. :) [uh..no tita, hindi po kami.hehehehe :)] buti nalang nagplay ako.at least, more time spent with you.di moko naistorbo, really. :) you didn't. you're like. one of my bestest friends ever.my supporter.my crap.my encourager.the one i know hindi mapipikon sa'kin.sanay sa moods ko.sanay sa crap ko. and vice-versa.i'll never find someone like you again.on second thought, i don't need to.i have you.and you have me forever. friends forever.it's like.words left unsaid.yet it's there.[at least for me. :)] so there.im always here for you to cry on.pero pag college ka na, you'll get over those crap na. :) daming gwapo, punta ka sa ua&p.haha :)
for my parting words...
chilax..enjoy life.don't be afraid to fall.
i'll be there.
always there.
giving you hell.
messing up you hair.
ruining your make-up.
making fun of you.
laughing at you.
helping you.
running with you.
cheering you up.
lending a helping hand.
being a friend.
loving you.
...
ingat faye :)
my forever fayerz. :)
fire.phoenix.goddess
7:37 PM
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Wednesday, June 22, 2005
perfection.damit
argh!!!
i know, i know im not perfect.
im just trying to point out something. un na nga eh, i think different.everyone think's different.
argh.
i hate it when stuff like this happens.argh!! i'm sooo off it right now.i just wanna scream. i won't fight, i won't defend what i said anymore.i can't convince you.you think that way, i think this way. just please, please try talking to her nalang. i can't solve everything, i can only poke, point things out, raise questions. leche, i know.im not perfect.im sorry!..but ganun tlga..hay. i can't answer that.eto lang masasabi ko..TALK TO HER.she's the one with the questions.what she did was not right.ayoko na magsalita pa. but im not..and i didn't say she's right.i really didn't.
this is too much for my befuddled brain.at least i know i shouldn't drink coffee nga tlga kasi i can't think if i do.argh.i have to go. goodnight everyone.or goodmorning.or whatever.
fire.phoenix.goddess
11:33 PM
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Sunday, June 19, 2005
positibo
..."you're a positive motivating force within my life..."
..."all i am, all i do is for you..."
..."i'll be lost in space without you..."
..."i miss you so much...i long for your love..."
an excerpt.open letter to whoever reads this especially YOU. [someone different this time.]
"hi..i miss you.i know it's been crazy lately, my schedule and my iritability has been going bonkers lately.im just really tired. hungry.pissed.[not with you though]. so there.i miss you. im getting tired of searching for this iliad. so anyway.even if i get attracted to other people, rest assured that in my heart..and mind, there's only you. [shux.] every night, when i stare@the moon as i often do, i think of you alone. [maybe i should keep this in private?] i pray for you everyday. for your safety.for God to help you.i hope you'll always be safe.if you ever need anything, know that i am here and you won't be interfering with whatever i'm doing@the time you sought for my help.indeed, i would be happy to help even if im having one hell of a day and my bones are shreiking for rest and i just wanna eat a gallon of ice cream. hehe :) hmm.maybe if you wanna see me, lure me with ice cream. fiorgelato, arcee dairy, selecta, etc. just make sure it's plain chocolate or i won't come. hehehe :) just kidding.
eat a lot..i know you're dieting/exercising which is good coz i don't want you to get sick coz of your weight noh.......i love you as i always do. je t'aime comme tojours "
there.excerpts ulit.laln.but if it is YOU who are reading this, you know what this is about. :)
fire.phoenix.goddess
1:49 PM
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Friday, June 17, 2005
before i sleep
Your IQ Is 100 |
Your Logical Intelligence is Above Average Your Verbal Intelligence is Exceptional Your Mathematical Intelligence is Average Your General Knowledge is Above Average |
fire.phoenix.goddess
11:27 PM
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squeezing me
hehe.got this off ate ap's blog.
Haeja Miras Franca's Aliases
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Your movie star name: Bread Bon
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Your fashion designer name is Haeja Paris
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Your socialite name is Kulot Fort
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Your fly girl / guy name is H Fra
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Your detective name is Cat Csr
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Your barfly name is Bread Smb
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Your soap opera name is Miras Wilson
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Your rock star name is Mentos Jet
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Your star wars name is Haeros Frachi
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Your punk rock band name is The Confused Vibrator
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"and if this feeling should leave, i'd die.
all roads end.
all this love is for you."
hope you'll read this.
fire.phoenix.goddess
11:21 PM
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open letter excerpt
an open letter to H.
"great speech. =)
hay..im getting sad =( lalang. self-control.grabe.i hope this isn't one of those times na crab-mentality takes over my lovely self. damn.shux.i do have something to do. Control myself. hay. think, think, think. i can do this. this. this...what am i to do again?
1 boyfriend. No, no. im starting to hate myself. Im driving ME crazy with thoughts like this. Oh my. Shit. parang ikaw ang lahat sa akin. Todo asaran, denial. Ha. Damn. ='( sabi ko sakanya 'crush ka niya.' then he said, 'crush ko rin siya' ='( awww... i shouldn't even be feeling this way. di, di, wait. infatuation? crush? shit. ano bang meron siya? basta this isn't love. this isn't love.i don't choose to love him eh."
CONTROL THY SELF
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got this off someone.hehe :) laln.nakakabaliw. yeah, parang ikaw ang lahat sa akin tlga. hehe. crazy.insane.
i need to see you..i really need to see you.i miss you.
goodnight.
fire.phoenix.goddess
11:03 PM
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Thursday, June 16, 2005
missing..
missing fayerz
i miss you fayerz..it's been..too long..actually when i called you up, i didn't know you wanted me to call..congrats, chorale ka ulit. :) goodluck sa entrance exams mo.. [shux,is this really me?? i m not giving you hell like i usually do.maybe i just miss you.yuck ang sweet ko pa sayo.of all people.eww.] anyway, it's so sad..that
when i walk sa corridors, i can't see you.wala na kong tao na biglang tatakbuhin [maybe syempre rin, college na..kahiya nman magttakbo don.] and pull the hair.hehe :) wala na kong maasar sa pagsusuklay.sa color pink.i like pink na rin.hate you. [yeah, i blame you syempre] and i don't have anyone to cry to na..ung tipong, alam kong magwworry..syempre diba..iba prin ang ating 4year friendship..laln.tamda dba?..since 1st year ka..laln.parang hay... :) i miss you.pero di pa naman ako naiiyak.di bale, pag pmunta ko ulit, ppasabi ko..si chimmy rin eh..ssabihan ko pag pupunta ko..imagine, naalala nya last time na tinext ko sya..which is nung 11..can't even remember that.but anyway. since college na, i dunno.i somehow lost the necessity to drive you insane with my crappy comments about those 556677 people.hehe :) laln. di, kasi diba you got offended with what i said..but don't ask me what i said.lamo naman ang memory ko..the best..kaya eto.super calm ko na and super sweet.as my nature really is.i dunno.hay.nasanay lang ako. hoy pero sweet din naman ako sayo sometimes ah..can't forget the time you got really worried nung practice ng play when i told you about the hunger-thingy..hehe.so sweet of you. laln. sige, gtg na eh.i love you always, fayerz!! mwuah!
fire.phoenix.goddess
8:20 AM
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i haven't blogged for so long..kinda stopped my addiction. i don't know.. walang
time..walang energy..lagi kasing pagod eh..and i wake up almost everyday 5 am..
tapos ang pasok ko..930..1:30..hehe..so texting for 1-2 hours..hehe..
sigh.my schedule is crazy.i don't have early classes like 7 or 8 but my last
class ends 730 p.m....shux.then every friday, that's the only day i have a 730
class and my last class ends at 6pm.that's crazy..thank goodness i have a couple
of breaks to stop the butt-aching hours i have to spend listening to my teachers
droning on and on.in fairness, they do have the ability to make you listen.
my english teacher freaks me out.really.she's the type who smiles but then you
can see in her eyes that she's a serious teacher.first meeting, we already wrote
an essay and stuff.shux.i failed it.i didn't know it was supposed to be this
formal composition.i guess got used to the csr way that the shorter the essay,
the higher the grade.argh.
my classmates are..interesting.hehe.but they're nice.:) what can i say?..i
belong to the L section.hehe.and..i have to take a math lab!! shux.i wish
i passed the diagnostic exam so i can take my algebra&trigo this year.i love
algebra.trigo hates me.hehe.hopefully, it'll learn to love me this year. anyway,
i do want to pass that exam.what if i didn't pass and all of my other classmates,
or at least my friends, passed?!?que qualchemar..
i joined the arnis varsity.hehe.didn't know, though.anyway, my p.e. is table
tennis.either that or volleyball..the girls can't join the taek won do class.
bummer.
haven't seen my other batchmates much though.i do see jamielle a lot coz we're
classmates.i don't know, she got transferred to our section.a couple of kids
got transferred to our section.so anyway, i was making earl [i think?] kulit.
hehe.he's from new york.cool place.grabe.he's 22, he's really nice.laln.
sharing.naaalala ko lang ung kahapon.
haven't encountered any dillemas.yet.i dunno.still waiting for that freakin'
hellweek.sna..si francis nln..ung friend ni derik..
i met him na and he's really nice.bsta, mukhang mabait.shux.wag lang tlga sana
ung mga utos na 'wear ur prom dress' or whatever silly thing they're gonna
make us do.ua&p tradition?!what the hell.even my sister don't have that
tradition and she's from UP.although she said the architect students have that
but still.hmm.
i miss you, poopie.
nagbati na kami ng ate ko.hay.i saw the sweater from kamiseta na naman..hay.
sabi rin ni justin maganda.ay grabe.justin is my classmate.uhm.todo chinese
look - maputi.singkit.but he's from osamis..and when he talks, it really cracks
me up.no, i don't have anything against cebuanos or whatever.it's just that
it's so funny that he looks so chinese and his accent is so.so.hehe. :) tapos
he talked to camille [from..leyte]..in bisaya eh i can understand some
and i answered him back and he was so surprised..hehe :) sarap nya kulitin eh.
sabi nga nila benise, pra ko daw kapatid kung kulitin ko.hehe :) laln.
sige, have to go.i have to study for my eng na..hay.
...tick-tick-tick-tick.boom boom!dynamite.boom boom! dynamite....
congrats to philip&juancho for that spectacular & hilarious
performance.haha :)
fire.phoenix.goddess
8:09 AM
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Saturday, June 04, 2005
what your parents won't tell you.
my response to that pathetic excuse for a letter found on the inane blog of someone existing within the planes of this thing called earth.click here
to view entry
i will not be brutal in response to that hapless note i read. har. just kidding.since YOU! were kind enough to write me..uhm.[was that a letter?] nwei.. that trifle thing on your blog, i will, with all graciousness and goodness coming from my most amiable heart, reply, of course, as i usually do.[can you still follow my brilliant mind?]
anyway..no,its not hot in hur [as nelly pronounces it.haha ;)] it's friggin' cold in here.the ice queen from the story 'ice queen' must have passed this way again.tsk-tsk.greta must have forgotten to push her in the sunlight again to melt her.i really have to get the robbers to spank greta's booty again.
what's with the freakin' song?it's like, you know.so like highschool. so like baduy!!..eew!..that must have been not carlos agassi's song! coz you like know, he's just like the best songer in the world!! yeah! all the agassi fans say 'yeah!' uh-huh! i so love you carlos!! [eew.] im like sooo like,you know, yeah, crazy over him, like super-mega-to the max..with wings! uh-huh!
note: for all those who will view this entry who is not YOU! the aforementioned part is not true.you do not know the whole story so just laugh and read on.or tag/kiss me ;) before closing my so-beautiful blog.haha. thanks.
::moving on as i go on to my life according to her..ehem.haha.::
anyway.this is a sooo serious entry so if YOU! are laughing right now.STOP!..in the name of love!uh-huh.yeah!bop your head in time to the rythm of my all-time favorite andrew e song-banyo queen! yeah baby!! [eew.]
was the english-pronunciation test easy?
was the sky ever lime?
was i as perfect as before?
was i making sense?
of course i am.
::moving on to my life..::
excerpt from YOU's! blog:
so there, as my parting words i share with you.. "wise men say only fools rush in but i can't help rushing inside every toilet in sight."
as i read those very sweet and very intelligent parting words, i just had the urge to vomit in every toilet you will go to. you are so sweet my einstein-aspiring braniac-nerd-geek of a [eeew] sister. gasp! did i just admit that YOU! are a relative, much more, a sister of mine?
oh my golly babeh! i must be out of my witless wit!!
with my intelligence,sometimes,i just really fail to amaze myself.
for my well-made-up closing remarks, i leave you with these words of wisdom.
'wisdom grows greater with age.
but of course.in every age, there is an exception.
and that is
YOU!'
im sorry to say my dear, when you got out of the mental hospital in the zoo, they told us that you will never get out of that stage wherein you will always be the armpit-scratching thing that you are.
no i did not inherit anything from you.
::note again: i do not think of boys.au contraire, i think of myself all day long.::
[p.s:: joke lang to ha.wag MO! seryosohin.i love YOU! tix! :)]
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fire.phoenix.goddess
11:02 PM
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Thursday, June 02, 2005
words in the senseless world
nga pla..people.. visit nyo blog ni ate mariko.. :) http://akosimako.blogspot.com
not very hard to remember naman diba?
i miss chippy..anyway..
this day was...
..surprising.
..incredible.
..nice.
..fun.
laln.looking for surveys still..surveys anyone? :)grrr!! hirap open ng friendster ko!!!ilang days na kya tlga.. hmp.. lalan..di ko tuloy ma-quench ung thirst ko for answering surveys.. ay.. laln.
hay..i just wish may mgwa ako..
di na kmi puntang thai..kasi nagmmdali,,kapos sa oras..ung sa baguio..aun, tinamad na mum ko..eh kasi naman, end of the summer na tlga..hay..pasukan na si june06..mejo may apprehension.. and excitement..
nkakatawa.di ko inoopen ringo ko..tapos inapprove ko ung kaypee.. lalang..sya lang friend ko!haha :)! of all people! laln.. hay.. wait..i'll try to dig deeper into my brain..
let's seee...hmmmmmm..what kind of teenager am i?..
Your label is the Nice girl/guy. You tend to care for others over yourself. However, many people appreciate your caring side and would rather stick by you than hurt you. But, there is a downside. Some tend to abuse your kindness and take advantage of you. You always try to see the good in everyone and try not to hate. Also, you have sharp insight and a great personality. Calm, serene, and understanding, you make a worthy friend and a valuble ally to people in need. Don't change your sweet nature, your constant being-there can save a life.
I suggest your go into a field that centers around working with others such as a doctor, baby-sitter, psychologist, lifeguard, or Teacher. If none of these occupations interest you, it is okay then. I am sure that there are plenty of oppertunities out there for you.
--nice girl?..yeah right.uh-huh.haha laln..
i'll go bloghopping muna.try looking for an inspiration or whatever.
i am a fairly normal person.does that mean boring?
WHAT IS LIFE?
Life is a goal, reach it
Life is a challenge, meet it
Life is a dream, realize it
Life is a game, play it
Life is an opportunity, grab it
Life is a mystery, unfold it
Life is a puzzle, solve it
Life is a song, sing it
Life is a bliss, embrace it
Life is a promise, fulfil it
Life is a struggle, accept it
Life is a sorrow, overcome it
Life is a joy, spread it
Life is a romance, enjoy it
Life is a sacrifice, offer it
Life is a gamble, take it
Life is a tragedy, face it
Life is a battle, fight it
Life is a journey, complete it
Life is GOD’s gift, cherish it.
-http://edawithjesusbeside.blogdrive.com
ganda no..laln..hay..im really not inspired today. wait. wait. wait.
hmm..kaya daw ako sad..coz i experienced grief..true, yes. but i'm over that grief.the grief na in one month, i lost two friends.. kat and my darling forever..gulai.
how sad it is to lose someone so early in life..pero it made me strong..made me open up to more people..lalo na nung nawali ung 08..im not dissing it.it was fun while it lasted. but it opened me more to people..now i have friends..i was too blind to see the possession in there.how i hindered myself in being with other people.sometimes, i am too blind.oops.i make myself blind. but i WAS inlove then.i am not now.with 08 i mean.so there.
with gulai..it was the grief that she left when i needed her the most.but that was a lesson learned.i branched out.i opened up and got a lot of great friends in return.most of all, yan, kat and poopie.the best.i love you poopie..thanks for everything..
have you ever met someone na right off the bat, nice agad?.. sweet. thoughtful and everything.we hit it off well agad.and my days are the best i've had in a long time..someone who'll make you feel special..who smiles when you arrive..it's the best feeling in the world to love and be loved in return..ayt?..the best. nothing compares. nothing. and i'm the most stupid person if i let go of what ive been hoping for to find..i love you..funny na..just when you thought you can't love more than you're loving now..you just do.laln.this day is so.peaceful.i guess love is the perfection of everything.im not talking crap.im talking..trying to tell how i feel..
I am worth $2,043,804 on HumanForSale.com
lol.haha :)
the best things in life are free. the person who came up with that life is a genius. how true.the best things in my life.
God [of course! :)]
fam
poopie... [ :) no doubt ]
hugs
kisses
the rain
air
friends..
:)
~ending are the musings and wasted are the days~
fire.phoenix.goddess
10:42 PM
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Wednesday, June 01, 2005
read it and tag
--disappointment seems to be my constant companion lately. aha. bsta parang super sad lang..ala lang.hayyy..
Your wise quote is: "Our greatest glory is not
in never falling, but in rising everytime we
fall" by Confucius.
Yes indeed, you see true strenght can only be
seen when a person has "fallen". Only
then one can tell how they will handle it. Just
don't make others fall so you can know who they
really are. You on the other hand may be a very
quick recoverer and don't let people bring you
down. You are your own, and you're find with
that. Emotional issues is something you handle
rather nicely.
--one of the nicest quotes i've heard..and if im to rate myself in rising from all my falls..i'd say i'd get a 6 or 7..i don't know if it's my obstinacy.or i'm that strong.or whatever.
got to thinking about being who you are.being REAL.something i don't see everyday,something i forget to do at times but i try. it doesn't matter naman diba.whoever we are, true people accept. so what if i'm vain?..every person is vain in one way or another. I just love my hair.or whatever.im proud.im strong-willed. so what?.. i calculate my moves, i play, i flirt.so what?.. everyone plays. it's part of the fun.it's part of life for goodness sakes.im not talking to anyone in particular.just one of those times im talking to myself..err.virtually.
In your eyes, people see shards of ice
everywhere... You are cold and distant, pushing
away people that love you and truely care for
you! You want to be able to reach out and love
them but... You can't for some reason... You're
just too.... You :P Underneath that cold
exterior lies a warm, happy soul that wants to
let loose and have fun! Your sanctuary would
probably be anywhere up high where you can look
down on life below you, like the roof of an
apartment building... Your eyes resemble a
saddened, crestfallen person seeking out
attention, but doesn't know how to handle it.
However, you do find comfort from your friends,
they're always there for you, and they know the
REAL you :) Even though you do seem rather
cold, you can be very protective over something
you truely believe in or love. Let go of that
"tough" rep and just be you! It's
impossible to live life without some fun and
love ^-^
<
--in a way, could be true..
fire.phoenix.goddess
10:58 PM
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wrong
how wrong i was.
aha.so wrong
hi gel! :)
really don't have anything to say.
empty are the musings and wasted are the days.
oh..happy birthday jerwin!! laln.
fire.phoenix.goddess
10:31 PM
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