--Goodbye my lover--
(james blunt)
Did I disappoint you or let you down?
Should I be feeling guilty or let the judges frown?
'Cause I saw the end before we'd begun,
Yes I saw you were blinded and I knew I had won.
So I took what's mine by eternal right.
Took your soul out into the night.
It may be over but it won't stop there,
I am here for you if you'd only care.
You touched my heart you touched my soul.
You changed my life and all my goals.
And love is blind and that I knew when,
My heart was blinded by you.
I've kissed your lips and held your head.
Shared your dreams and shared your bed.
I know you well, I know your smell.I've been addicted to you.
Goodbye my lover.Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.You have been the one for me.
I am a dreamer but when I wake,
You can't break my spirit - it's my dreams you take.
And as you move on, remember me,
Remember us and all we used to be, I've seen you cry,
I've seen you smile.I've watched you sleeping for a while.
I'd be the father of your child.I'd spend a lifetime with you.
I know your fears and you know mine.
We've had our doubts but now we're fine,
And I love you, I swear that's true.
I cannot live without you.
Goodbye my lover.Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.You have been the one for me.
And I still hold your hand in mine.
In mine when I'm asleep.
And I will bear my soul in time,When I'm kneeling at your feet.
Goodbye my lover.Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.You have been the one for me.
I'm so hollow, baby, I'm so hollow.I'm so, I'm so, I'm so hollow.
okay..so maybe this isn't wholly appropriate for just one person...
1. Talk to someone you like: *yes..my friends..seeing na natulugan ko nnmn si poop..
2. Buy something: *hmmm..new clothes? hehe ... :)
3. Get sick: *hmm..nasusuka ko every now and then..dunno why..
4. Sing: *i'm frustrated.hehe..i just sang the song i posted before this..
5. Talk to an ex: * ex what? lover? ahaha...
6. Miss someone: *hm..right now? wla naman..
Last person who...
7. Slept in your bed: *ako syempre..sino pa kaya? ;)
8. Saw you cry: * tagal na nun kaya i don't really remember..
9. Made you cry: * siya na un!
10. Went to the movies with? * chie..
11. You went to the mall with: * pa and ma.
12. Said "I Love You" and meant it: *aha.
13. Ever been in a fight with your pet: *tix is my pet so ... lately, no.
14. Been to California: * i wish!! i want the sun!!
15. Been to Mexico: * gusto ko rin..gnda ng aztec culture nila eh..weird.
16. Been to Canada: * sana.pag winter para malamiiiiig!!!
17. Been to Europe: * sana..i really wanna go to Italy, France, Germany..ah basta trip to Europe..and live in England. :D
19. Do you have a crush on someone: * do i still?...hmmm..aside from arty and harry..and channing tatum, wla naman.. lol ;)
20. What book are you reading now: * who's bugs potter?
21. best feeling in the world: * to be loved..aha.
22. future kids names: * coeli..delilah..adelaide..
23. Do you sleep with a stuffed animal: * oo.. :) super dami..puro bears :D
24. What's under your bed: * aba the floor of course.
25. Favorite sports to watch: * hmmm.arnis? haha..table tennis? ewan..
28. What are you most scared of right now?: * cockroaches of course.super yucky nila eh!!!
29. Where do you want to get married?: * sa Church..aha.
30. Do you have a job: * sa april pa..office girl.hehe
31. Do you like being around people: * hmmm..at times.may times na i wanna be alone and just read a book...
32. Have you ever cried: * of course..paglabas ko pa nga lang sa mundong to, umiiyak na ko..tsktsk..
33. Are you lonely right now: * hm?..not really.njan si liz eh, stalker ever. :) haha!! [if you're reading this..ahaha !!! :D]
34. Song that's stuck in your head right now: * goodbye my lover, high, narda :D
35. Played strip poker: * how do you play that?
36. Gotten beaten up: * yes, by my sis and by the arnis members..ehe
37. Been on radio/TV: * no..i think.
38. Got bored: * shit lately yes!
39. Been in love: * can't deny it.yes.
.40. Wish you were happy: * of course..i think gusto ng lahat un except nln sa mga taong gusto magpahirap sa sarli nila dba..
1. Do you believe that love is forever?*hmm..love exists forever..but love with one person...? could be..
2 Do you get hurt by people easily? *hmm..binawasan ko na sensitivity ko eh!nasobrahan nga ata, manhid na daw ako ngayoN!
3 Do you believe that all people are generally goodat heart? * uhm?..i guess so.they're just shaped by the circumstances in their own lives..
4 are you sure that you will be what you want to besomeday? * yes, i think so.i'm makulit that way.
5 Do mean people make you sad? *no..i laugh at them coz they get irritated that way..aha.
6 Does ice cream make you happy? * yes!! mababaw ako that way.
7.Do you sing in the shower? * minsan lang..when im sure the shampoo won't get inside my mouth..
8 When it rains, do you like to splash in thepuddles? * eew no! unless clean dba.aha.
9 If you see a cute girl walk down the street,do you smile and tell him/her that he/she is cute? * no!! i nver tell anyone those things..
10 Do you notice when people have beautifuleyes? * yes.i'm very attracted to people with cute&smiling eyes.
11 Have you ever cried at a movie? * oo!! haha.guilty.
12 Is it cute when old people are holding hands? * hmm..i think it's really sweet that their love lasted.
13 Are you a happy person? * yes..
14 Do you tend not to worry even when you knowsomething bad is about to happen?*i'm a worry-wart.a big one.
15 Is it okay to cut off barbie's hair? * no..sayang nmn.!! mahal ang barbie noh!!
16 Have you ever laughed so hard that yourstomach hurt? * oo!when i watched she's the man! that was so friggin funny!
18 Are you slightly lazy? * oo..hehe :D
19 Do you like to drive with the windows down? * hmm..kung wlang traffic..
20 Are you in love? * ehem...
fire.phoenix.goddess
9:46 AM
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Wednesday, March 29, 2006
i decided to go back to my old blogskin..kasi it's simple, black, and nice looking.. hehe :) aun lang.. wla kasi ko mgwa..and prang mas trip ko tlga tong skin to..ang ganda eh.flowing lang.okay i'm blabbing once more..i really don't have anything to say..
ang sarap kumanta sa "Narda" by Kamikazee..sigh.aun lang..
summer na!!!
time for fliplops and tube tops, backless and miniskirts.. heheheheheh!! :)
don't forget ur sunblock! :)
fire.phoenix.goddess
5:28 PM
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Tuesday, March 28, 2006
There was once this guy who is very much in love with his girl. This romantic guy folded 1,000 pieces of paper cranes as a gift to his girl. Although, at that time he was just a small fry in his company, his future didn't seem too bright, they were very happy together. Until one day, his girl told him she was going to Paris and will never come back. She also told him that she cannot visualize any future for the both of them, so they went their own ways there and then...
Heartbroken, the guy agreed. But when he regained his confidence, he worked hard day and night, slogging his body and mind just to make something out of himself. Finally with all the hard work and the help of friends, this guy had set up his own company ..
You never fail until you stop trying. One rainy day, while this guy was driving, he saw an elderly couple sharing an umbrella in the rain walk ing to some destination. Even with the umbrella, they were still drenched. It didn't take him long to realize they were his girl's parents.
With a heart in getting back at them, he drove slowly beside the couple, wanting them to spot him in his luxury sedan. He wanted them to know that he wasn't the same any more; he had his own company, car, condo, etc. He made it! What he saw next confused him, the couple was walking towards a cemetery, and so he got out of his car and followed...and he saw his girl, a photograph of her smiling sweetly as ever at him from her tombstone and he saw his paper cranes right beside her...
Her parents saw him. He asked them why this had happened. They explained, she did not leave for France at all. She was ill with cancer. She had believed that he will make it someday, but she did not want to be his obstacle... therefore she had chosen to leave him.
Just because someone doesn't love you the way you want them to, doesn't mean they don't love you with all they have. She had wanted her parents to put his paper cranes beside her, because, if the day comes when fate brings him to her again...he can take some of those back with him...
Once you have loved, you will always love. For what's in your mind may escape but what's in your heart will remain forever. The guy just wept...The worst way to miss someone is to be sitting right beside her knowing you can't have her, see her or be with her ever again.........hope you understand.
Find time to realize that there is one person who means so much to you, for you might wake up one morning losing that person who you thought meant nothing to you.
fire.phoenix.goddess
6:58 PM
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Wednesday, March 22, 2006
survey and pics..
laln..haven't studied yet..haaay...laln.i honestly don't have anything to say.i must really get going and get my arse off this couch..*sigh* i can't help my..by body's craving for laziness.
sagot nga muna kong survey for fun..hehe..sayang yung pics ko dun sa isang computer..sayang tlga.. the computer crashed kasi eh..sigh.i still feel confused and unsure..and whatever..*sigh*
laln..nung 18th birthday ko..
hmm..this looks interesting..
1. What’s one character in a book, movie, or television who reminds you of yourself, and why?^^ belle ng beatuy and the beast..aha :) kasi she loves books..like me!! :)
2. If you could have any superpower, what would itbe?^^ to fly or to be able to go to a place i want in a snap..like paige..hehe :)
3. What kind of person do you find yourself romantically attracted to?^^ huggable, sweet, caring, thoughtful people.
4. How do you think you’ve matured over the years?(if you have)^^ in a nice way.ahaha.kapal ko tlga. :)
5. What’s the freakiest experience you or a friendhad involving ghosts, UFOs, or the paranormal?^^ 4th year..agness room..ha.
6. What’s one opinion a person can express thatmakes you want to bitch-slap them?^^ that my tix is something she's not.
7. What family member do you get along with theleast? Why?^^ him! (not my dad of course) he's just argh!
8. What’s one guilty pleasure you indulge in fromtime to time?^^ hmmm? aha.my secret :) pero siguro kasama na dun ang splurging for food/books..
9. What ethnicities, other than your own, have you dated if any?^^ nada.isn't that kind of racist? or maybe it's just my mind.
10. What’s one social/political issue that you might contribute money or time toward?^^ research for leukemia.hehe ...
11. What’s one of the most superficial things about you?^^ hmmm?wla naman ata..oh yeah.my "straightness"..
12. What do you think is one of your best qualities?^^ my hair..i just love it like hell.hehe
13. When was the last time you yelled atsomebody?^^ just now.
14. What’s the crappiest gift you’ve ever given or received?^^ i don't know..
15. What was the crappiest job you’ve ever had?^^ my only occupations are being a princess and a goddess of the moon and i'm not complaining!
16. Have you ever stolen anything? If so, what?And don’t worry – nobody will call the cops.^^hm?...
17. What’s your favorite pick-up line?^^ get away from me.ahaha!
18. What should a guy/girl do to pick you up at abar?^^ give me a REAL diamond ring.hehehe...
19. What are your opinions about the French?^^ nice accent.
20. Do you think Crash should have gotten bestpicture?^^ i didn't watch it.
21. Why do birds suddenly appear…every time…youare near?^^ coz im just toooo pretty.hehehe
22. What's something you wish ppl would automatically know about you?^^i only bite when hurt.
23. What’s one misimpression that you think peoplewho don’t know you have about you?^^that im a perpetual bitch.im not!okay..not always..
24. What’s one quality you dislike in anotherperson?^^ liar!!!
25. What’s your best physical feature (and don’tsay eyes)?^^ my hair.hair.hair.
26. What’s the name of the person who posted this survey before you, and what do you think of them?^^divina.she posts nice surveys.. hehe.
27. What are you doing today?^^ studying.okay, supposedly studying for my theo exam.
28. What do you hope to do this weekend?^^after arnis? sleep and rest like hell.
29. What’s one of your favorite movie quotes?^^"i guarantee that we'll have tough times.i guarantee that at one point, one or both of us will want to get out.but i also guarantee that if i don't ask you to be mine, i'll regret it for the rest of my life..." - runaway bride. :)
30. Why aren’t you working instead of wasting timedoing this stupid survey!!! ?^^tinatamad pa ko...!!!!
me and my mimi..
let me sleep a deep sleep for hours on end until i can emerge refreshed and ready to face the world...
fire.phoenix.goddess
2:39 PM
0 lovers
Tuesday, March 21, 2006
laln.
I realized love is not blind. Rather love ACCEPTS. Love will die for someone else. And to do that, you have to be sane. Love sacrifices and to be able to do that, you have to have the capability of thinking. Love is when you will sacrifice yourself. If love is blind, how can it see? To turn away from the things that pains you, you have to have sight. And when you turn away, that is when you accept. Ahaha :D
Open letter to Bian Acosta
I realized that I did not do you justice when I got mad. I forgot the person inside you, the one I knew, my friend. All because anger got me blinded. I do not regret letting you go coz I know it both did us good. Rather a part of me regrets that I finished our great friendship. It was really one of the best.
I have forgotten that before what we had, we were friends. I have forgotten all the things you did for me. And I have denied that you really loved me because of the pain I felt. I will never forget the time you hugged me when I got your crush to hug you that night. Not because I was hurt, I was happy for you when I saw the way your eyes shone with delight. And then you hugged me after that and you didn’t let me go after that. I will never forget the times you shared your lunch with me because I didn’t want to eat mine. I won’t forget the time you gave me your favorite baon because I didn’t want mine and you knew I loved yours. I won’t forget the time you cooked extra cordon bleu for me because you knew how much I loved it. I won’t forget the time you held my hand when they talked to you and we all knew they were dissing me. I won’t forget the time you turned your back when she confessed. I won’t forget the time you gave me your slippers when my feet hurt. I will never forget that you never let me pay for anything. And that you tried to give me the best of what you can. I won’t forget the flowers and all the letters you gave me even when you were busy. I’ll never forget the time you called me on an April when we just broke up…asking why I want to get away from you and that I can hear your voice filled with pain…and that you finally asked me back. I won’t forget the words you wrote when we first broke up on that September. That was one of the sweetest letters I ever received. You were one of the best. I will never forget the time you had a crush on her and you confessed it and you forgot it and the way you brush away my tears when I cry. I won’t forget the way you stood by me when your sister found out and the times you wait for me at the end of each day just to be with me for some time before we part ways. I won’t forget the day you came to my parent’s office and brought me food and your face fell when you found out I don’t eat cheese spread so I choked it down for you. I won’t forget the time I went to your house and you tried to find something for me to eat.
You did a lot of things for me and I never doubted your love for me until we broke up. Out of spite and out of the pain I felt, I closed my eyes to the truth that you loved me. It’s just that sometimes, love isn’t enough. And love doesn’t last forever.
*but maybe this time it will.*
thank you for everything bian...
fire.phoenix.goddess
9:14 PM
0 lovers
Wednesday, March 08, 2006
what a great piece..
Love That Bites by Paolo Manlapaz
I'm going to fall in love someday. One day, perhaps from out of the blue, perhaps from behind my back, some wonderfully precious lady is going to grab one of those caveman type clubs and send it crashing over my head. She's going to make me see stars. For days, I'm going to be in a smiling stupor. Maybe I'll even drool a bit. And I'm going to be in love.
This love is going to be neither cheap nor easy. It's not going to be a plastic ring bought at the corner dime store. It's not going to be a brass ring purchased at some commercial mall. It's going to be a set of diamond in a ring of gold. This ring will not come from a gemstone though. I'm going to craft it myself. I'm going to smelt the ore, fashion the ring, cut the diamonds, and forge this magnificent jewel. It's going to shine in the sunlight, glitter in the moonlight, and it will last for more than a thousand years. And it will before her.
Now I don't want this love to be bed of roses, painted or otherwise. I don't want it simply sweet and sugary. I don't want it to be just like peppermint bits or chocolate kisses.
I want this love to hurt.I want this love to bite. I want this love to be able to bite. I'm not talking about ant bites, mosquito bites, bee stings. I don't want to be bitten by some pitiful insect that I can slap away or crush with barely a thought. I want to be bitten by something with teeth. I want to be bitten by a great white shark or the king of the jungle. I want a piece of myself to be torn away and chewed on. I want to bleed.
I'm not crazy, and I'm not a masochist. I have never enjoyed pain and I don't like being hurt. But I want my love to be able to hurt me.
I want my love to be someone I can fuss over, someone who'll have me pulling out of my hair in fistfuls trying to decide whether she'd rather have the dozen roses or the Valentine truffles. I want my love to make me chew my fingernails down to my knuckles when it's almost midnight and she's not home from the office yet. I want my love to make my heart pound ceaselessly when I worry about her driving on highways inhabited by gas-pedal-pushing madmen.
I want my love to make me pace back and forth, wearing deep trenches in the carpet, when it's 8:30 and she hasn't called yet. I want my love to push big, fat, watery tears from the hiding places in my eyes, down my flushed cheeks, off my hardened chin, and onto my clenched fists when she yells the word "hate" in my face and calls me a jerk. I want to feel the cold kiss of steel through my heart should my love ever leave me all alone.
And should my love ever die, I want to weep for days on end. I want to scream and kick and curse and hate. I want to feel as if my body were being burned by fierce flames. I want to thrash madly about and when my spirit is spent, I want to feel a noose tighten around my neck, slowly choking me.
With my hands clasped about my throat, I want to feel cold, as if ice had slid through my veins. I want to feel the heavy black weight loss and love on my frail shoulders.
I want my love to hurt, hurt as painfully as can be. I want to feel every bit of this pain. I want to feel every bit of this love.
I want this because love that doesn't hurt is love that isn't real. And I want the real thing for me and my true love.
lyrics lang..wait..
with a smile (eraserheads)
lift your head, baby don't be scared
of the things that could go wrong along the way
you'll get by with a smile
you can't win at everything but you can try
and baby you don't have to worry
coz there ain't no need to hurry
no one ever said that there's no easy way
and when they're closing all their doors
and they don't want you anymore
this sounds funny but i'll say it anyway
girl i'll staythrough the bad times
even if i have to fetch u everyday
i'll get by if you smileu can never be too happy in this life
coz in a world where everybody hates a happy ending story
it's a wonder love can make the world go round
but don't let it bring you down and turn your face into a frown
you'll get along with a little prayer and a song
lift yer headbaby don't be scared
of the things that could go wrong along the way
we'll get by with a smile
now it's time to kiss away
those tears goodbye...
fire.phoenix.goddess
6:18 PM
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