[[- * phoenix.fire

Sunday, June 26, 2005

| | |whatever | | |

hay.im so evil sometimes.but that's not the point.i just want to type [as usual] ang mga kabaliwan na naiisip ko.pero syempre kanta ulit.

you're a positive motivating force within my life...

you are the one thing that keeps me smiling..."

you give me a reason for this feeling...and i love what im feeling...

all this time away, is killing me inside...

hello there.

i miss you

fire.phoenix.goddess
8:30 PM

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| | |do not regurgitate | | |

thinking of my beloved term paper

while trying to come up with a great topic for my philsoc [philippine society and culture] term paper, i suddenly realized [like it..poof!it became koko-crunch!..yeah, like that,] na during my high school years, i hardly used my brain.YEAH.I DIDN'T. amazing. i mean, yes, i had to use like an itsy-bitsy percent to think of how to answer mrs. adri's test creatively and maybe score some 'effort points' but then..it just isn't THINKING. And yes, there were actually times when i super-forced myself to use like..1-2% of my brain and actually understand the mathematical concepts and all that pythagorean stuffs and that a=c and b=c is acutally a=b...but that was easy.and now in ua&p, im really digging deeper into my brain just to pass my one subject.my philsoc subject to be exact.and this is just the start...maybe i'll regret this [but hopefully not]..id like to thank ua&p na.haha. :D kulit ba. hehe. pero grabe tlga.im starting to think na.and this is so..college....

classic lit.the best.i just love classic lit.i use my brain, analyzing ILIAD..and it's so amazing.bsta, it really is amazing and im starting to wonder if maybe i should start rereading all my books and analyze each of them.or maybe not. so there.dito na muna ang aking academic rambling.

missing fayerz 2
i miss you fayerz.still. :)
no, don't think na sagabal ka sa'kin.you're not..with all the craziness im experiencing, i need all the non-college people i can talk to..college..college is treating me like it should.does it make sense?..it's hard.funny.it has it's moments.stressing.kapagod.its making me long for sleep and highschool life.but not really.coz im loving it.all the stress.all the problems.it's so.life.
yeah, i know you miss me.haha :) but rest assured..i miss you too. :) wala na makikinig sa crap ko about life.lovelife.schoollife. im thankful for my friends but it just isn't the same.hehe :) syempre.4years.uncomparable.:) [matouch ka...] please.you'll probably laugh at me.golly.parang napakamature na nila.almost all of them wear make-up and im still this beautiful kid. ;D mejo kainsecure.dun ka nalang mag-aral, sama tayo :) punta kong school some time.sana nga magkita tayo sometime eh..laln.di pa ko nagsasawa sa'yo..kaw pa.i love you fayerz. :) [uh..no tita, hindi po kami.hehehehe :)] buti nalang nagplay ako.at least, more time spent with you.di moko naistorbo, really. :) you didn't. you're like. one of my bestest friends ever.my supporter.my crap.my encourager.the one i know hindi mapipikon sa'kin.sanay sa moods ko.sanay sa crap ko. and vice-versa.i'll never find someone like you again.on second thought, i don't need to.i have you.and you have me forever. friends forever.it's like.words left unsaid.yet it's there.[at least for me. :)] so there.im always here for you to cry on.pero pag college ka na, you'll get over those crap na. :) daming gwapo, punta ka sa ua&p.haha :)
for my parting words...

chilax..enjoy life.don't be afraid to fall.

i'll be there.

always there.

giving you hell.

messing up you hair.

ruining your make-up.

making fun of you.

laughing at you.

helping you.

running with you.

cheering you up.

lending a helping hand.

being a friend.

loving you.
...
ingat faye :)
my forever fayerz. :)

fire.phoenix.goddess
7:37 PM

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Wednesday, June 22, 2005

| | |perfection.damit | | |

argh!!!
i know, i know im not perfect.
im just trying to point out something. un na nga eh, i think different.everyone think's different.
argh.
i hate it when stuff like this happens.argh!! i'm sooo off it right now.i just wanna scream. i won't fight, i won't defend what i said anymore.i can't convince you.you think that way, i think this way. just please, please try talking to her nalang. i can't solve everything, i can only poke, point things out, raise questions. leche, i know.im not perfect.im sorry!..but ganun tlga..hay. i can't answer that.eto lang masasabi ko..TALK TO HER.she's the one with the questions.what she did was not right.ayoko na magsalita pa. but im not..and i didn't say she's right.i really didn't.

this is too much for my befuddled brain.at least i know i shouldn't drink coffee nga tlga kasi i can't think if i do.argh.i have to go. goodnight everyone.or goodmorning.or whatever.

fire.phoenix.goddess
11:33 PM

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Sunday, June 19, 2005

| | |positibo | | |

..."you're a positive motivating force within my life..."
..."all i am, all i do is for you..."
..."i'll be lost in space without you..."
..."i miss you so much...i long for your love..."

an excerpt.open letter to whoever reads this especially YOU. [someone different this time.]
"hi..i miss you.i know it's been crazy lately, my schedule and my iritability has been going bonkers lately.im just really tired. hungry.pissed.[not with you though]. so there.i miss you. im getting tired of searching for this iliad. so anyway.even if i get attracted to other people, rest assured that in my heart..and mind, there's only you. [shux.] every night, when i stare@the moon as i often do, i think of you alone. [maybe i should keep this in private?] i pray for you everyday. for your safety.for God to help you.i hope you'll always be safe.if you ever need anything, know that i am here and you won't be interfering with whatever i'm doing@the time you sought for my help.indeed, i would be happy to help even if im having one hell of a day and my bones are shreiking for rest and i just wanna eat a gallon of ice cream. hehe :) hmm.maybe if you wanna see me, lure me with ice cream. fiorgelato, arcee dairy, selecta, etc. just make sure it's plain chocolate or i won't come. hehehe :) just kidding.
eat a lot..i know you're dieting/exercising which is good coz i don't want you to get sick coz of your weight noh.......i love you as i always do. je t'aime comme tojours "

there.excerpts ulit.laln.but if it is YOU who are reading this, you know what this is about. :)

fire.phoenix.goddess
1:49 PM

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Friday, June 17, 2005

| | |before i sleep | | |

Your IQ Is 100

Your Logical Intelligence is Above Average
Your Verbal Intelligence is Exceptional
Your Mathematical Intelligence is Average
Your General Knowledge is Above Average

fire.phoenix.goddess
11:27 PM

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| | |squeezing me | | |

hehe.got this off ate ap's blog.

Haeja Miras Franca's Aliases

Your movie star name: Bread Bon

Your fashion designer name is Haeja Paris

Your socialite name is Kulot Fort

Your fly girl / guy name is H Fra

Your detective name is Cat Csr

Your barfly name is Bread Smb

Your soap opera name is Miras Wilson

Your rock star name is Mentos Jet

Your star wars name is Haeros Frachi

Your punk rock band name is The Confused Vibrator

"and if this feeling should leave, i'd die.
all roads end.
all this love is for you."

hope you'll read this.

fire.phoenix.goddess
11:21 PM

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| | |open letter excerpt | | |

an open letter to H.

"great speech. =)
hay..im getting sad =( lalang. self-control.grabe.i hope this isn't one of those times na crab-mentality takes over my lovely self. damn.shux.i do have something to do. Control myself. hay. think, think, think. i can do this. this. this...what am i to do again?

1 boyfriend. No, no. im starting to hate myself. Im driving ME crazy with thoughts like this. Oh my. Shit. parang ikaw ang lahat sa akin. Todo asaran, denial. Ha. Damn. ='( sabi ko sakanya 'crush ka niya.' then he said, 'crush ko rin siya' ='( awww... i shouldn't even be feeling this way. di, di, wait. infatuation? crush? shit. ano bang meron siya? basta this isn't love. this isn't love.i don't choose to love him eh."

CONTROL THY SELF

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got this off someone.hehe :) laln.nakakabaliw. yeah, parang ikaw ang lahat sa akin tlga. hehe. crazy.insane.

i need to see you..i really need to see you.i miss you.

goodnight.

fire.phoenix.goddess
11:03 PM

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Thursday, June 16, 2005

| | |missing.. | | |

missing fayerz
i miss you fayerz..it's been..too long..actually when i called you up, i didn't know you wanted me to call..congrats, chorale ka ulit. :) goodluck sa entrance exams mo.. [shux,is this really me?? i m not giving you hell like i usually do.maybe i just miss you.yuck ang sweet ko pa sayo.of all people.eww.] anyway, it's so sad..that
when i walk sa corridors, i can't see you.wala na kong tao na biglang tatakbuhin [maybe syempre rin, college na..kahiya nman magttakbo don.] and pull the hair.hehe :) wala na kong maasar sa pagsusuklay.sa color pink.i like pink na rin.hate you. [yeah, i blame you syempre] and i don't have anyone to cry to na..ung tipong, alam kong magwworry..syempre diba..iba prin ang ating 4year friendship..laln.tamda dba?..since 1st year ka..laln.parang hay... :) i miss you.pero di pa naman ako naiiyak.di bale, pag pmunta ko ulit, ppasabi ko..si chimmy rin eh..ssabihan ko pag pupunta ko..imagine, naalala nya last time na tinext ko sya..which is nung 11..can't even remember that.but anyway. since college na, i dunno.i somehow lost the necessity to drive you insane with my crappy comments about those 556677 people.hehe :) laln. di, kasi diba you got offended with what i said..but don't ask me what i said.lamo naman ang memory ko..the best..kaya eto.super calm ko na and super sweet.as my nature really is.i dunno.hay.nasanay lang ako. hoy pero sweet din naman ako sayo sometimes ah..can't forget the time you got really worried nung practice ng play when i told you about the hunger-thingy..hehe.so sweet of you. laln. sige, gtg na eh.i love you always, fayerz!! mwuah!

fire.phoenix.goddess
8:20 AM

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i haven't blogged for so long..kinda stopped my addiction. i don't know.. walang
time..walang energy..lagi kasing pagod eh..and i wake up almost everyday 5 am..
tapos ang pasok ko..930..1:30..hehe..so texting for 1-2 hours..hehe..

sigh.my schedule is crazy.i don't have early classes like 7 or 8 but my last
class ends 730 p.m....shux.then every friday, that's the only day i have a 730
class and my last class ends at 6pm.that's crazy..thank goodness i have a couple
of breaks to stop the butt-aching hours i have to spend listening to my teachers
droning on and on.in fairness, they do have the ability to make you listen.

my english teacher freaks me out.really.she's the type who smiles but then you
can see in her eyes that she's a serious teacher.first meeting, we already wrote
an essay and stuff.shux.i failed it.i didn't know it was supposed to be this
formal composition.i guess got used to the csr way that the shorter the essay,
the higher the grade.argh.

my classmates are..interesting.hehe.but they're nice.:) what can i say?..i
belong to the L section.hehe.and..i have to take a math lab!! shux.i wish
i passed the diagnostic exam so i can take my algebra&trigo this year.i love
algebra.trigo hates me.hehe.hopefully, it'll learn to love me this year. anyway,
i do want to pass that exam.what if i didn't pass and all of my other classmates,
or at least my friends, passed?!?que qualchemar..

i joined the arnis varsity.hehe.didn't know, though.anyway, my p.e. is table
tennis.either that or volleyball..the girls can't join the taek won do class.
bummer.

haven't seen my other batchmates much though.i do see jamielle a lot coz we're
classmates.i don't know, she got transferred to our section.a couple of kids
got transferred to our section.so anyway, i was making earl [i think?] kulit.
hehe.he's from new york.cool place.grabe.he's 22, he's really nice.laln.
sharing.naaalala ko lang ung kahapon.

haven't encountered any dillemas.yet.i dunno.still waiting for that freakin'
hellweek.sna..si francis nln..ung friend ni derik..
i met him na and he's really nice.bsta, mukhang mabait.shux.wag lang tlga sana
ung mga utos na 'wear ur prom dress' or whatever silly thing they're gonna
make us do.ua&p tradition?!what the hell.even my sister don't have that
tradition and she's from UP.although she said the architect students have that
but still.hmm.

i miss you, poopie.

nagbati na kami ng ate ko.hay.i saw the sweater from kamiseta na naman..hay.
sabi rin ni justin maganda.ay grabe.justin is my classmate.uhm.todo chinese
look - maputi.singkit.but he's from osamis..and when he talks, it really cracks
me up.no, i don't have anything against cebuanos or whatever.it's just that
it's so funny that he looks so chinese and his accent is so.so.hehe. :) tapos
he talked to camille [from..leyte]..in bisaya eh i can understand some
and i answered him back and he was so surprised..hehe :) sarap nya kulitin eh.
sabi nga nila benise, pra ko daw kapatid kung kulitin ko.hehe :) laln.

sige, have to go.i have to study for my eng na..hay.

...tick-tick-tick-tick.boom boom!dynamite.boom boom! dynamite....

congrats to philip&juancho for that spectacular & hilarious
performance.haha :)

fire.phoenix.goddess
8:09 AM

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Saturday, June 04, 2005

| | |what your parents won't tell you. | | |

my response to that pathetic excuse for a letter found on the inane blog of someone existing within the planes of this thing called earth.click here
to view entry

i will not be brutal in response to that hapless note i read. har. just kidding.since YOU! were kind enough to write me..uhm.[was that a letter?] nwei.. that trifle thing on your blog, i will, with all graciousness and goodness coming from my most amiable heart, reply, of course, as i usually do.[can you still follow my brilliant mind?]

anyway..no,its not hot in hur [as nelly pronounces it.haha ;)] it's friggin' cold in here.the ice queen from the story 'ice queen' must have passed this way again.tsk-tsk.greta must have forgotten to push her in the sunlight again to melt her.i really have to get the robbers to spank greta's booty again.

what's with the freakin' song?it's like, you know.so like highschool. so like baduy!!..eew!..that must have been not carlos agassi's song! coz you like know, he's just like the best songer in the world!! yeah! all the agassi fans say 'yeah!' uh-huh! i so love you carlos!! [eew.] im like sooo like,you know, yeah, crazy over him, like super-mega-to the max..with wings! uh-huh!

note: for all those who will view this entry who is not YOU! the aforementioned part is not true.you do not know the whole story so just laugh and read on.or tag/kiss me ;) before closing my so-beautiful blog.haha. thanks.

::moving on as i go on to my life according to her..ehem.haha.::

anyway.this is a sooo serious entry so if YOU! are laughing right now.STOP!..in the name of love!uh-huh.yeah!bop your head in time to the rythm of my all-time favorite andrew e song-banyo queen! yeah baby!! [eew.]

was the english-pronunciation test easy?
was the sky ever lime?
was i as perfect as before?
was i making sense?
of course i am.

::moving on to my life..::

excerpt from YOU's! blog:

so there, as my parting words i share with you.. "wise men say only fools rush in but i can't help rushing inside every toilet in sight."

as i read those very sweet and very intelligent parting words, i just had the urge to vomit in every toilet you will go to. you are so sweet my einstein-aspiring braniac-nerd-geek of a [eeew] sister. gasp! did i just admit that YOU! are a relative, much more, a sister of mine?
oh my golly babeh! i must be out of my witless wit!!

with my intelligence,sometimes,i just really fail to amaze myself.

for my well-made-up closing remarks, i leave you with these words of wisdom.

'wisdom grows greater with age.
but of course.in every age, there is an exception.
and that is
YOU!'

im sorry to say my dear, when you got out of the mental hospital in the zoo, they told us that you will never get out of that stage wherein you will always be the armpit-scratching thing that you are.
no i did not inherit anything from you.

::note again: i do not think of boys.au contraire, i think of myself all day long.::

[p.s:: joke lang to ha.wag MO! seryosohin.i love YOU! tix! :)]

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fire.phoenix.goddess
11:02 PM

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Thursday, June 02, 2005

| | |words in the senseless world | | |