[[- * phoenix.fire

Tuesday, July 26, 2005

| | |laln.. | | |

im typing this while waiting for the dial-up to finally connect.why is the line
so busy tonight?? sigh.this days is one of those days id gladly try to forget.
and i would really like to repeat the week i took my ensci and eng exams. que
horror.those test sucked the mood out of me this morning.imagine, i was so
excited to attend Math.i am finally starting to love it.the teacher is
über-nice that you can't help but look forward to learning.im serious.he's way
too nice for us.

grabe.thank God for my 60/100 exam!i sucked major.ensci nalang!! tinanong nga ako
ni ma'am what happened.i studied.at least i think i did.i don't have time to
study naman na kasi super tired talaga pag uwi..or maybe i just don't have good
study habits.either way, in my opinion, i flunked majorly.

i spent p45 on ice cream alone today......super depression.tumatawa na nga ung
owner ng fiorgelatto coz he knows i buy ice cream there when i'm depressed.tapos
i bought two cones pa.and 1pack of flat tops.right after i ate lunch.yeah.i'm
that depressed.

grabe, chie...congrats tlaga.galing mo! :) laln.diba friends tayo..sabi ko kay
sam, friends pa rin naman tayo..i hope whatever will happen, it will turn out
fine.im super freaked-out that's why im wide awake right now.hyped by the
adrenaline of what will happen tommorrow.syempre, di ko pa malalaman agad.

goodluck sa foodfest nyo..

hi faye.hi jenna.hi jenest. haha :)
chie, i talked to abby11 na.i told her na un nga, wala na..

finally have the lyrics....

STAY
I believe
We shouldnt let the moment pass us by
Life is too short
We shouldn’t wait for the water to run dry

Think about it
Cause we only have one shot at destiny
All Im asking
Could it possibly be you and me?

So if youd still go, Ill understand
Would you give me something just to hold on to?
And if youll stay, Ill hold your hand
Cause Im truly, madly, crazily in love with you

Time has come
For us to go, our separate ways
God forbid
But my mind is going crazy today

I feel so cold
Feel so numb Im having nightmares but I’m awake
Help me Lord
Fight this loneliness
Take this pain away

Now that youre gone, Im all alone
Im still hoping that you would come back home
Dont care how long, but Im willing to wait
Cause Im truly, madly, crazily in love with you

--si chimmy nagrecommend sa'kin ng song na to..sabi nya maganda daw..
maganda nga..laln. :)--

HANGGANG KAILAN
Labis na naiinip
Nababagot sa bawat saglit
Kapag naaalala ka
Wala naman akong magawa

Umuwi ka na baby
Di na ako sanay ng wala ka
Mahirap ang mag-isa
At sa gabi'y hinahanap hanap kita

Hanggang kailan ako maghihintay
Na makasama kang muli
Sa buhay kong puno ng
Paghihirap
At tanging ikaw lang ang
Pumapawi sa mga luha
Naglalagay ng ngiti sa mga labi

Di mapigilang mag-isip
O baka sa tagal
Mahulog ang loob mo sa iba
Nakaka balisa
Knock on wood wag naman sana

Hi agie!!ka-chat kasi kita right now kaya..hi! :)

fire.phoenix.goddess
11:15 PM

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Monday, July 25, 2005

| | |wla lang | | |

hay.it's been too long since i tried to blog but anyway,..

i know it's evil to tell abby to break up with mar..pero dba.. grabeng srap ng feeling pag binalikan ka nya..woe to you, for me lang, that you didn't get the chance to experience how it is na habulin ka nya..but we all have our opinions and that's mine.but im not being evil and sadist and everything.naawa lang ako when i heard you crying in my ear.sakit ng ganun eh.ngawa.ngawa tlga na parang life is hell.tapos pag hinabol ka oh..wow, sarap tlga. then you will realize na mahal ka niya tlga. but anyway, you're going strong daw..i hope you are..no more tear-filled stories..sensya na rin sa pangiistorbo ko..eh wlang sumasagot sa mga tawag ko eh.. haha :)

hello mikee..laln.that was really sweet of you last saturday..being with the people i left behind in csr jolted me to reality the things i miss the most about high school life..im sure miss rin to ng iba..iba kasi tlga pag college eh..lalo na ngayon, di pa masyadong close...

..i miss my private conversations with: jenna..(lagi to!)
yan.. (madalas rin to..)
emma.. (miss you so much!)
jus.. (every thurs..haha)

..i miss the hugs and kisses i get everyday.. :( sobrang miss nyo to kasi wla na maghhug sa inyo sa college!!swerte nyo kung kasama nyo barkada nyo and classmates nyo..with my case, it's not.

..i miss going to the locker..going to the caf and seeing everyone and all those private conversations sa cr..although im enjoying all my breaks and classes..

..i miss my world history class.can you believe that??

..i miss running towards faye and playfully making her inis..

..i miss writing endless letters everyday to chippy..chie..emma..kahit kanino..

..i miss you chippy24 ko..

basta..iba tlga pag college..halos wla na nga akong time ngayon eh.. wlang time manood ng tv, gumawa ng homework, mag-aral..phone.. pano, pagdating ko sa house, bagsak sa kama..super kapagod tlga..pero ganun tlga..sna nga lighter load na sa 2nd year..as if.. hay. tlga...

naging mush nnman ako..si jkat kasi eh..nice entry..super nice entry.
love.love.love.hay.

i think i have to go..pero lam ko may kkwento pa ko eh..

im getting tired of all the hell that the people are creating for our country.stupidity rises in the air.causing the downfall of many.

Anger be now your song, immortal one
Akhilleus anger doomed and ruinous
Which caused the Akhains loss on bitter loss
And crowded brave souls into the undergloom
Leaving so many dead men. carrion-
for dogs and birds; and the will of Zeus was done.
Begin it when the two men first contending
broke with one another.
The Lord Marshal,
Agamemnon, Atreus' son, and Prince Akhilleus.
Among the gods, who brought this quarrel on?
The son of Zeus by Leto. Agamemnon

ayan, that's the first page of Iliad, my classic lit buk.but wait, i have to gooooo.

miss you..miss you..miss you.

fire.phoenix.goddess
11:51 AM

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| | |Love | | |

Love.love.love.
bigla akong napush magwrite about this.damnit, im a wuss.
what is it that i always tell you?

Estoy enamorado de ti.

out of all the stuff i read, this one jumped right into my face and i value it more than the other one : fall in love with.
i will not reveal yet what that means.on second thought, i will not reveal in here what that means.go figure.but it's one of the sweetest things you dream to hear.

it's not i love you.it's something else.

> someone who will love me for me.
> who will constantly be there for me.
> who will love me for ME.not just an illusion but to see the bitchiness in me, the flirt in me, my inner soul hungry for love and acceptance.
> who will never play with my heart
> never risk losing me
> do everything na kaya nya para lang di ako mawala.
> someone, who at the end of the day, will kiss your stress and blues away and hug you.[although..di pa to nangyyari lately. :( ]
> someone who will hold my hand inspite of all the kalyo in my hand coz of arnis..
> someone who will understand my crazy schedule
> someone who will shut up when i don't need crap and when my head's so heated up

and i found that person.no matter how wrong.i still found you. and all i keep on doing is to hurt you.how stupid of me.but don't dare steal poopie away.i'll kill you.haha.

"...it's you..nobody needs to tell me so..it's you.."

fire.phoenix.goddess
12:10 AM

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Friday, July 15, 2005

| | | | | |

There are two major types of water biomes: marine water and freshwater. There are four ecosystems in the marine water biome. They are: open oceans, coral reefs, seashores, and estuaries.

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that is actually part of my homework in my ensci.grabe tlga.. 1 1/2 lang break namin tomorrow!!!!i should be doing my homework na.kasi diba.i have to wake up mga past 4..and leave home before 6..just to be in time for my 730 class.tapos..1:30 na lunch time ko..grabeng tuloy-tuloy tlga!!..

note to self: bring food.bring chocolate.bring water.bring clothes.

crappy world
catching me off guard
defying me, fighting back
beating down my defenses

solitary world
enter new friends
quench thirst for society
confining self to corners

sparkling gem
watching you sleep
seeing you peaceful
contentmen creeps in

shining light
giving joy
you raise me up
from hopelessness

taking your hand,
taking the fall
risking the pain
just letting go

forgetting the past
redescovering love
holding my head up high,
clasping hands together.

walking to the end.
making you smile.
loving eternally.
just you and me.

fire.phoenix.goddess
12:00 PM

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| | |girl facts | | |

just wanna make this quick cute post before i log off.got this off bada's site.

GIRL FACTS

When a girl is quiet,
Millions of things are running in her mind.

When a girl is not arguing,
She is thinking deeply.

When a girl looks at you with eyes full of
questions,
She is wondering how long you will be
around.

When a girl answers "I'm fine" after a
few seconds,
She is not at all fine.

When a girl stares at you,
She is wondering why you are lying.

When a girl lays on your chest,
She is wishing for you to be hers forever.

When a girl calls you everyday,
She is seeking for your attention.

When a girl wants to see you everyday,
She wants to be pampered.

When a girl says "I love you",
She means it.

When a girl says that she can't live
without you,
She has made up her mind that you are
her future.

When a girl says "I miss you",
No one in this world can miss you more
than that

is this true, b?sagutin mo yan ha!

fire.phoenix.goddess
1:08 AM

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Wednesday, July 13, 2005

| | |negativety | | |

grabeng negative energy ngayon..sa politics..sa classmates ko.. ang badtrip na nga ng politics natin ngayon..grr tlga.

i really find them stupid.those imbeciles who think that if they have a rally, things will change.what the heck?!?! how many revolts and people power have we had?? can you see any change? stupid people. they're mad coz of the economy but hello?..how stupid can you get?! didn't you even think that you're part of the cause? argh.so stupid.investors are scared coz you're doing all those rally whatever.so just stop!and those people who are rallying? don't you have anything better to do???? i know, though, that those people are those lazy asses who don't have work and they're blaming the president coz they can't support themselves then they will impregnate their wives with what?5-8 children? naman!!!! get your lazy butts moving, man!

un sa class naman..grabe.parang si mm.may prob kay mm.na sakin kinekwento..tapos ung isa..nagccomplain about kay ano.. na pinagppilitan sarili sa kanila.ssabihin nya, okay lang pero sobrang hung-up nya sa knya!! namn!!! come off it! tapos all those opinionated talks.i really don't wanna hear about them.sobrang self-absorbed ng mga tao lately.

ang nakakapagpatawa na nga lang sa'kin, si rowenna@aya eh..kulit kasi ni rowenna tignan..hehe :) tapos si aya 'interesting.' haha :) mga tanong nya, super funny tlga..hehehe :)

this week is killing me.im soo tired emotionally, mentally, and physically.

banana talk session 2..hmm.okay lang..although mas quiet kami.. pero iba-iba kasi kasama namin eh..ang mainstay lang, kami nila aya.. alaln.hay.hay.

::i miss you.sana magkita na tayo.i really need something na hindi magpapastress sa'kin.hay!!hay.i love you always..ingat!!sana magkita na tayo diba..hay.::

oops..belated kay willette..hay.

dapat kanina pa ko tulog pero ginawa ko na lang tong ensci..kasi bukas, lab naman..grabe..super depressed tlga.hindi, siguro down lang coz of the chain of events around me..hay..gtg n.. hay.. hay. hay..

[confused.down.depressed.argh.]

fire.phoenix.goddess
9:34 PM

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Monday, July 11, 2005

| | |banana talks | | |

hello..currently enjoying my banana talks with mia and aya.. sarap kausap nung dalawa..with topics ranging from love to gloria to martial law to bananas [u get what i mean..] to subjects to teachers to classmates to whatever we see..

our banana talks session was named like that coz of the topics. haha. :) it is the result of long cuts..[10:30-3:00 w/ nothing to do] and the craziness combined of 3 different people.turtie, aya, and me. enjoy ka pag narinig mo.all the inane questions of turtie, followed by my sudden remarks of 'mukha siyang lasing.' to the debating voice of aya, then our combined voices of telling our answers to turties insanable questions.

it's different.relaxing.just the kind of crazy stuff i need everyday. life wouldn't be complete without banana talks in the caf every afternoon topped with either beef tapa or my insatiable appetite for simply pasta's macaroni.

::as much as i don't show it as often as i should.i feel the same.you just have to trust me.no other banana-wearing guy could change that now.one day at a time, right? i love you.i miss you.::

hi sam..happy 12..kay gel..happy 11.. :) miss you..... :)

fire.phoenix.goddess
11:13 PM

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Monday, July 04, 2005

| | |Am I??? | | |

Am I???

You are pure, moral, and adaptable.
You tend to blend into your surroundings.
Shy on the outside, you're outspoken to your friends.

You believe that you live a virtuous life...
And you tend to judge others with a harsh eye.
As a result, people tend to crave your approval.

...

You are dreamy, peaceful, and young at heart.
Optimistic and caring, you tend to see the best in people.
You tend to be always smiling - and making others smile.

You are shy and intelligent... and a very hard worker.
You're also funny, but many people don't see your funny side.
Your subtle dry humor leaves your close friends in stitches.

[[more like ganto ko..isa pa.]]
...

You are nurturing, kind, and lucky.
Like mother nature, you want to help everyone.
You are good at keeping secrets and tend to be secretive.

A seeker of harmony, you are a natural peacemaker.
You are good natured and people enjoy your company.
You put people at ease and make them feel at home with you.

...
[[andami..it must be true then.na halo-halo personality natin. i know i am. hehe.]]

fire.phoenix.goddess
9:15 AM

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| | |the view outside my window | | |

ngek.nklgay na title 'the view outside my window'.. hehe. may ilalagay dapat akong thoughts dito but nung isang araw pa un so i forgot na rin..ndito ko sa house ngayon..laln. no morning classes today..tomorrow, pe lang..wla kaming math..

hellweek starts today...johanna concepcion felicia. sya master ko and wla pa kaming contact. ho-hum.

wla akong magawa.as usual, procrastination is taking over me. i choose pleasure over necessity.insane. but ganun tlga. im trying to do this.to do it.peste kasi yan si ian eh.do i have to do everything?..goodness.i can't entrust it to anyone else.im too scared of the outcome that's why i burden myself with every 'group'- project and work hard.unless there's someone else taking control.but more often that not, there's no one. argh.

'Dione' - mother ni aphrodité.laln.just sharing some crap.

grabe.super tinatamad ako magaral sa pinoy.

narealize ko bigla napaka boring ng blog ko. heheheheheh :) :) :) who cares.. hehehehehe :)

i reek. sigh.there's nothing to do.
kasi naman..hay.di ko mabuksan friendster ko.how disappointing :( no more questions for me. :(

grabe ang bagal ng internet ngayon, it's irritating me.

it's 8:42 am and i haven't eaten yet.fish eh.haaaaaaaay.
so there.di tlga mabusan friendster ko unless i access it somewhere tapos i have to do it fast kasi biglang may blah-blah pop-up.
hay.hay.i guess pinapakita sa'kin na i reaaaalllllly have to go.
ay laln.remember nicole de pedro? sweet nun.laln.sobrang bait tlga, nakakaalw. :) she's in maryland na.ang kulit nga eh.nung nsa school sya, di kami nagpapansinan..tapos ngaun she's gone, tska pa kami nagpansinan.nu ba tlga?..does distance bring you closer??? not physically, though.

laln.naisip ko ung kanta ni nina na 'i love you, goodbye.' i won't elaborate much though.pero.wala lang.napapaisip tlga ko dun.hay.

[ay grabe..may live journal account nga pala ko which i never ever used before.anyway.]

im not the one you needed..[hay.onga.]
someday you'll understand..[hindi pa rin..]
im only doing this for you..[tlga lang ha..]
i don't really wanna go.. [hmmmm.hindi ba tlga???]
but deep in my heart i know this is the kindest thing to do. [yep.it's the best thing.]

hay.laln.just talking to myself.anyway, hay faye.sna nga tlga di buksan ng mahal mo 'tong blog ko.let's keep our secrets to ourselves..wag na ibunyag sa nakaraan..hay.basta, sa'min na ni faye yun..right, faye?

nagpost na pala ko ng entry dun sa live journal..ung song ni nyoy na 'tanggap ko'..but anyway, past is past...grabe, super boring nya....ayan, mamamanage ko..aww.katamad.eto na lang lyrics ni nina.

STEEP

Softly, gently, I will let you down
'Cause I don't love you In the same way now
I can hold you But not with lover's arms
'Cause you are more of A brother to me now
'Cause I can lie next to you...But I can't lie to you

Chorus:
So walk into the sun and watch me Run into the rain
For you, the future's easy, so don't weep
For me, it's getting steep...

I loved you for Exactly who you are
And I'd say we've come The nearest yet by far
'Cause I can lie next to you...But I can't lie to you

Chorus:
So walk into the sun and watch me
Run into the rain
For you, the future's easy, so don't weep
For me, it's getting...

Steeper...From where the dark that's where I want to be
Steeper...From going somewhere you won't want to see

So walk into the sun and watch me Run into the rain
For you, the future's easy, so don't weep
Yes, I will watch you ...
Walk into the sun and watch me Run into the rain drops
For you, the future's easy, so don't weep
For me, it's getting steep...
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ang sad no..laln.hay...sige na, gagawain ko na term paper namin sa phil soc.

hi poopie.i miss you..thank you kaninang umaga.. *wink* hehehehe :)
laln.ingat..dapat kumain kang lunch ha..aawayin kita pag hindi.. ingat..kinig sa teacher..hi kay kat..uh..jkat. :) mwuah!

fire.phoenix.goddess
9:02 AM

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Sunday, July 03, 2005

| | |thoughts from within | | |

.surprising.
.happiness bursting within.
.secretive.
.alluring.
.seductive.
.shy.
.out.
.introvert.
.sexy.
.beautiful.
.loud.
.laughter.
.love.
.tears.
.problems.
.up.
.down.
.continuation.
.temptation.
.control.
.missing feeling.
.running.
.living.
.excited.
.new day.
.forever.
.life.
.you.
.seven.
.five.
.bears.
.dogs.
.cats.
.acceptance.
.past.
.jealousy.
.love.
.hugs.
.kisses.
.seeing each other.
.hidden.
.perceptive.
.friends.
.09.
.questions.
.curiousity.
.discovery.
.decipher.
.dislike.
.love.
.love.
.love.

::thoughts from within about you and me::

fire.phoenix.goddess
2:14 PM

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| | |my first time | | |

my first time

thursday.june 30.it was a normal day.so unexpected.i met poopie sa shang.then we went home na kasi it was around 5 na.then we waited for a long time sa waiting shed for the bus.so tagal.waited for around.30 minutes, i think..i just wanna ride the aircon bus coz it's cheaper nowadays.but there was no aircon bus so finally, i was forced to ride a non-aircon bus coz it was getting late na tlga. i got on the bus around 6pm and i was having fun making inis poopie. then on the highway.it happened.

the bus overheated.

as in there was smoke coming from the tail of the bus and we were seated at the back and the men behind us were panicking coz it was smoking.so the bus stopped and the people started getting out but the conductor said maybe we can still go so we rode and then a few minutes later, the bus stopped again.this time, some of them got down na coz it was really freaky so poopie and i almost got down from the bus but the conductor said 'kaya pa hanggang bicutan' so there.we sat nalang near the door then a few minutes later.again.the bus stopped and the people got down na.tapos they got their money from the conductor.i didn't, though.naawa pa ko kasi nasiraan.tapos you know what???when the conductor gave the money to the others, they left!!! they left us IN THE HIGHWAY!!!! freak!then a service-type vehicle let the others ride with them.poopie and i hurried over to where they were but they were filled na.so i tried to take this passing taxi but it was running so i tried to run after it but poopie yelled for me to stop nalang.so we got back to where the remaining few were and then we tried to ride other buses but they didn't want us to ride coz the highway patrol thingy might apprehend them or something. poopie, i guess, was getting nervous na kasi it was getting late na tapos anlapit namin sa village nila.hahaha :) i know it's mean but i just laughed.coz i don't wanna panic and poopie might get more nervous.besides, i really found the whole event hilarious. hehe :) finally, a bus took pity on us and we rode there and they dropped us na sa bicutan without getting payment from us.thank God!..i didn't have anymore money and i don't want poopie to pay for that kasi kakain nga ako tapos sya magbabayad..ala lang.tapos aun.binilhan na nya kong food sa wendy's.yumyumyum.super yum tlga ng food tapos we both rode our respective jeepneys.un nga lang, i rode the wrong jeep!!! i rode the pasay jeep when i should ride the sucat jeep..eh those were my last coins so i was forced to use my hundred bucks just to pay for my 5.50 fare.hay.

that was my first time na mag-overheat ang bus and i was left on the highway.hehehe :)

thanks for the food, poopie.... :)
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alam ko may kkwento pa ko eh.ay, laln.i wanna go shopping and buy new clothes.eek.pafeminine na.tska corporate.ewan ko ba.i wanna buy shoes.....wait. i have to go na.laln.miss you fayerz..... :) mwuah!

fire.phoenix.goddess
12:13 PM

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